A letter from January 31st, 2018

Dear Future Abby, Right now I am anxious. I don't know where I'm going and I still haven't figured out what I want to take up career-wise. I don't regret learning from the course I took from college; things just didn't turn out as bright as planned but I'm still trying. I just hope that where you are there in the future, I hope you are at least content and happy in your own way. Heck, I'm not even sure how well you're going to be but keep taking care of yourself. I know we promised not to end the journey no matter how we find ***** attractive, I hope you're still strong to uphold that promise. We live to care, we live to keep and give love, we live to continue supporting those we hold dear - even if there would come a time that we will be let down, but I hope that it will not happen. Right now I am tired, typing this past midnight where I am about to wreck my sleeping schedule again to try to push myself to finish something, in effort to accomplish something so that I could be proud of myself that I actually finished something. I hope that at the time where you will be, you would have accomplished many things or a couple that makes you look back in awe and be proud of yourself. I don't think that this moment right now could be one of those because I know I'm pushing myself to the edge because I honestly don't know where I will end up in. I'm scared but I'm holding on. If you feel that way too, I hope you'd get over it. I'm just so tired and I want to sleep forever and as tempting as that sounds, I can't. I hope where you are, you are able to bathe in light and positivity and feel loved and appreciated. If you can read this, I would be happy that you still made it far. -Abby 2k18