Where are you now Rachel

Dear FutureMe, Right now, at this very moment I am sitting on Kerris couch watching the news. A building on Reed St. just collapsed. They are showing footage of the building and all I keep thinking is "I would live in Tribeca" I'm obsessed with getting an apartment. I cant wait to live alone. I know it could get lonely, but something tells me Im going to be happier than I have ever been. Living alone might suck a little in the winter time... but this summer is going to be amazing. I have also been trying to eat healthier, although the last couple of days have been "off diet" behavior. I slept with Frenchie on Tuesday night. Im kind of regretting it now because it was something I was cautious about, but did anyway because in the back of my head somewhere I thought maybe he would regret having dumped me and wanna spend time together again. We had a really amazing night together, and I havent really heard from him since. I spend so much time teaching myself how to not get "wrapped up", or "sucked in" and I do a really good job. But every once in a while, I stop and have to admit that it sucks a little when you realize, he wasnt into you as much as you want him to be. Oh well.... I just hope you are happy. I hope that wherever you are today, and whatever you're doing... you look in the mirror and you're happy. I hope that you live in an apartment that you love, in an area that you love. I hope that you are making more than enough money to support yourself and save. Maybe you can finally focus on bringing a good man to love into you're life now that some of the dust has settled. You have been through a lot. You have experienced a lot of loss, and a lot of turmoil. You have made a lot of sacrifices and worked very hard. You have also experienced a lot and gained wisdom through those experiences. You have had lots of time to play, and made some very very good friends along the way. Life is a journey full of hills and valleys, and you know how to handle both. Your always good Rach. You always have been and you always will be. Love you, Me