A letter from Nov 16, 2024

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, My friends aren’t the same as last year… I wonder if anything’s changed for you too. I’m currently friends with D, L and PJ mostly… Theres also the twins E & M and Leo. Oh and Lucas and GZ But more so than last year, its pretty much just you and D. L and PJ are basically dating, they just haven’t admitted it yet, so they spend most of their time together. And I feel most of the gang is more friends with them than with us. I dunno. Do you still study at RC? It’s a lot, I know. Rich kids are so stupid (as if i’m poor haha) But it’s true. I’m not seen, and it’s partially my fault. I hope you’ve gotten better. And all that food stuff, huh? Still having some of those rules? Every morning at school I only eat either a nuts mix or a cereal bar, only half a juice box. Else I get sick. My brains just weird. There’s also not eating ice cream, açaí nor milkshake when i’m with my friends… When i’m at the mall then, i can’t eat anything. It’s messy ig I’m not sure i’m entirely normal, but since then i’ve found ways to control my anxiety so… Pretty much specific foods at certain times and/or places make me sick, by association rly. So I just stick to other foods. It’s simple! Plus, at the very least i’m not having at least three anxiety attacks per day at school since i’ve found the foods that I don’t relate to anxiety/sickness.. D said that we both should look for therapy, I agree, in a way. I undermine myself too much, alongside that food thing. I’ve just settled with the fact i’m a little bit pathetic and constantly feel a tad humiliated around the other girls in my class (they’re pretty and tall and good at sports and….) So is the life of a fourteen year old girl 🔥 (Well… fifteen, in your case)

Epilogue

28 days later

I don’t really know how to answer this, actually.

What i can say is that most of those rules aren’t necessary anymore. I’m not sure when it all stopped...

Veer ond’t dna pnpesah i ti eefl i kiel roetea…v ’sit btu elss not ,eginttamr uxiosan a enwh lot. .
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D yonl srifden aols uoy ’renat sema as qiuet twhi ttypre uoy mn enco humc dna el!lw thwa rew?e erwe’ seidinirpfsw-?he eth own.
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Fleey dan vloe veyr srxespe ltleti tyouhc ’ewre orem daour,ylwt a.
Hrtut ubt enrev in os i hinkt nebe ittansd ewve’.
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Erh i ep,deyl evlo.
I elss meas or we wnhe adh the ssatte llits msis omer but. Eno adn psroen crat,crdpoa si ahh!a threo it’s eht ba suakra br anhciwgt dahr wnhe.
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Ta euoy’r yoru lfee rvye ton oogd botau tlagkni nok…w of adn ouy saekm ti uyo hwo aebr ebsueca tessnrtie.
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Ihts enacdhg ucmh nh’ast alyrle. Nad tng,iyr ’shtaw tpinrmato tast'h reuyo’.
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Iekl foent uory atht of euebcsa feel btu is nodesei,-d sirhinpfed yuo.
Efrtdsruta elveas dan uoy tdire htta.
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Pj, eaiglvn nm next e yae…r nda ear.
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So !)( acbuese iylfcf)iola pj tno hwti lceos l o(wn ’ueyro dtiang se’h.
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D,iemss tub e pledey illw nm and eb.
Ghuhot plarbybo slilt l’wel kalt. ,ithng unlana nepositrcid hmitg my ,culaaytl( …nw)?et who ceckh an i hsti maek.
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’yuore yeour …lr them hitw ont umhc yvre ftrnideef edrsnif and elpope eehrst.
Fndirse l thiw reethy’ os… tub.
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Isht pdessa erbaly ,eyra i.
I aedm but t!i.
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Erya shlco,o ta mroe sith i eusldrggt.
Tol aws emor btu a it nuf.
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Liiegnor, arenoht uot lngilaf ’eiv hitw dha.
Ont outhhg tlidyeinfe tsi’ ideviftein.
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Liugt ky si ***** a.
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Payhp, im’.
?you hant mbyae orme.
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V,ole tsol fo.
You!.

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