A letter from Sep 26, 2024

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, Hi, it’s currently 2024 and i am 16 years old. As you obviously know. I am in college doing sociology psychology and childcare. Did you drop out of any? Are you and Leland a thing? or did your avoidant attachment prevent you from getting with him? Right now i think things are getting worse, i can’t tell but it might just be the winter months. I’m planning to send this letter when you’re 17 but i might get impatient and send it earlier 😭. Your friend group rn is: isobelle, freya, charlotte, fran and gwen. I feel like i’m not wanted much there and sort of like the odd one out but it might just be me overreacting. I don’t even need to ask about amber because i know she’ll still be in your life. I have quite a few friends now aswell! College has really helped me and i don’t feel as bad as i did in high school. I’m just thankful i’m out of that environment if i’m being real. I think everything is getting bad again because the whole eating issue has gone bad. But it’s weird cause i’ve not considered myself disordered since i was 14 but yeah idk. I think this whole leland talking stage is bringing me back to old habits because you know what im like during relationships and how mentally ill i get. I don’t want it to be like that this time i really really don’t. But yeah honestly just update me on anything new as i really don’t have anything interesting going on rn.

Epilogue

12 days later

Hi! I’m dropping out of childcare next year which isn’t great, but i just realised it’s really not my thing. Me and leland are a thing, for...

Nraudo ohtsnm 6 onw. Neeb darh cines klei reyv ’ehs e’vhtna eylarl ’ttash ni ck,si mih nda aseg rdha nese. Gaina cahmaetttn isxnuoa 14 i rusth nmattthaec eefl vaodnait od dna uoeltafnutnry lal veor tino hhwic ti tbh sha toal im’ ,hstru klie utdren. Eavh tge aesr,y ti, i ta i’ts htnmos, to i veen iogng ntac’ w’satn i’m ebne i rfo oepc natiexy nthik ma it veah so jtus i ubt ni bpslsoie lal hcum to s,eeesdprd roem tbu twreni srepedesd olmyarj anc i i um so i ll,eeogc i s’it otn’d tehn aypreht the yoka hitnk ntaw gouhhrt. And hatt uyo enirfd lrace dmae ti hy’teev yee’hrt nto out leov sa llsti xeymerelt purog tyhe uoy niealgv ’mi uhcm nad taht ni. To is rabme tond’ oyru reefvor yse eilf in edne eenv aks. Ton kihnt tvgasrni im’ taegni sooccnsiu luonyntutfrae i adn ilke so epomsbrl nniygtah ubt nytaonlnltiie ma bd,a trymelexe ym i rae i syelmf bauot i uchm efel evhwrene sa fesl utlig tea bydo d’otn teh. Sha adn dnalle yeha to uobtrhg utb so his ash uoy emad uslp owh eh’s ckab i lnymteal hte eeetxlyrm lil yuo hinkt not i,htbsa utlaf bad itngda i’st ephtnliiasro lil. Dt’no od i so llraye wtha nwok ot. Rueoy’ hpadeenp hucm ogngi had os n,o sha lkuyc os yalelr six ni eesht onhpecredm ardh ot osmnth nhgtoin oy’veu tsi’. Niloogk oogd nynna eultanftyruno soaptlih it’s otn usmm dna ,idde in dan.

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