A letter from Jun 21, 2024

Time Travelled — 6 months

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, God I'm so overwhelmed. I think the reason why the stress has been getting to me lately is because I'm burned out. I've been going non-stop basically for 2 years. From my first job straight to doing my masters, then not taking more than 3 weeks off during those 2 years. I think the longest break I had was in December of 2021 between my course and first internship. I've been going non-stop ever since. I haven't had a proper summer vacations since the summer of 2021. I want a lot, and I've been trying my best to achieve it all. But it's too much sometimes. I planned this period horribly really. I'm still not done with my thesis, which I know is not at an academic level I know I'm capable of achieving. I'm making myself crazy. I feel like I'm not allowed to say I'm stressed because I did this to myself and because my peers will just look down at me if I do. Like why are you stressed? You're an overachiever. Why can't people see that I'm my worst critic? A normal person would not fret if one of the many things they do doesn't work out. Well I'm afraid of failing. I hate it. If I set out to do something then I must do it. But I'm tired. I bit off more than I can chew, but I have to see it through. I'm doing my best. I just want this thesis to be over and done with. I want to be able to study for my exam on time. I still have so many lectures to go through. Okay I counted it, I have to go through 4,5 if I skip the guest lectures. That's actually not that bad. See I go through phases where I'm like I got this and then I break down and absolutely lose my ****. And then I end up doing nothing because I feel like **** and everything stresses me out. I have to start going through my feedback tho. I need to really make some progress with my thesis tonight otherwise I'll have a panic attack soon. I also need to pack for my summer internship. This is embarrassing, high school me would have laughed at me. I used to be so good at planning **** and balancing so many **** at the same time. No I just break down if I'm even just a little bit stressed. It's like regressing not progressing. But then again I wasn't burned out in high school. Let's finish this thesis so I might actually have a job after this. Tell me how I survived this. Did I finish this degree or did it finish me? (I'm being very dramatic but the stress is making me feel like this is the end of me)

Epilogue

10 days later

Dude it was very ******* hard I'm not going to lie. You ended up having to rewrite whole parts...

Fo ta otn teissh yrou ourpd all you of and eerw it. Rvye dan agder uyo a got ubt aemdgna good tllsi. Neif sujt tenw creuso by teh. Rvye euosrc ervy nogl a mxea saw it swa hdar eht nda. Ddi it btu uyo. Lla ti you ddi. You eorfeb gaenivl hte bdunil ecpkad ofr dya. Asmeowe wsa dnulbi *******. Losohc ebne em upord aehv hgih duwlo. I hknti asrye dna ttha clhoos amyn fgotro mase adh ihhg eth eth smae i teercsah fo ouy rof vetnermnoin ni set. Fo dlibu ndik fo adlrlyuag ouy ruoy all ucesjtsb. Otal ouy u,toneir yuo rtysa emka a nlear yawa t'ndo fmor ot e,ucedlhs a hatt. Efftdiner utald enigb is na. Egrhhi is coaentuid fnfedeitr. Namgae lncanttyso to dan ayw onhrwt all ouy yuro get lslab sutj it rceuv ndee hstee. Esog nthgoni npal yuo aylelr way teh it. Eavh ouy nact inerout a ets. Btu rea you ereh. Sllti ddi yuo adwetn uyo ot nergyehtiv. Fo us 'im droup. .

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