A letter from Jan 01, 2024

helloooo future louisa, i wish there was a way to talk to myself from the past or respond to a letter but i can just do it now while i write you a new one i grew out of the nickname blue. i dont know now it feels silly and trivial to me and i embrace the name louisa more now because it feels classier and more unique and less cringy. its also so crazy to me that i'm about to graduate you know? in FIVE months... and that you will be about to start your spring semester and IAP at freaking MIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hope you are doing well. study hard, don't succumb to any pressure, you will do great. it just felt like 2020 and by the time you read this you won't even be in high school, isn't that crazy? god it was such an insane four years but you worked so hard to get where you are now so don't let it go. to answer 2023 me, truthfully i am scared for such a big shift in my life but i am so excited to start this year afresh and enjoy what i want to do! i will tell you about me right now :) relationships: i'm still dating ethan!! and i love him so much he has become my whole entire world and 2023 would not be the same without him... he is such a blessing to have in my life and i am so excited to LDR with him because i was scared we would have an invisible timer to whenever we go off to college. things are just not the same without him around i don't regret a single moment with him and last year i joked about marrying him when i turned 18 but right now i really wish we would, even if we are young and impressionable. he is just such a great guy and i am so so so lucky work: i work at ichiban right now, i will be so sad to leave whenever i go off to college because i love all my coworkers so so much and i hope you think about them from time to time and vice versa. i hope you aren't spending too much money at MIT or are making good money!! stress: i am not really stressed right now but i guess i will wait for it to hit whenever i start the spring semester. i don't want to go to school anymore. what a gnarly case of senioritis i hope you completed your book goal and watch a bunch more fun films and continue to update your letterboxd and good reads!! i love you (and me) so much, louisa