A letter from Aug 31, 2023

Dear FutureMe, hi my beloved. how are you? how are you feeling this past weeks? i hope you’re fine, i might not remember the times, days and weeks that we fought and cried so much in our silent battles. just like yesterday, some moments in life slips away but some will remain in a nightmare. gaya ng dati, maglalaho rin ang sakit na nararanasan mo ngayon. you might feel different weather right now; confused, exhausted, empty and broken— i want to remind you that all you have feel is valid but please, be gentle to your self. be gentle in every words that you will rant and do not harm yourself again— do not question yourself. right now, we’ve been dreaming to have a flat 1 grades in college because we have something to prove to, something that we love to have to valid ourselves, and to paid everything we sacrificed and suffered. i am tired and i fear that i will disappoint you. pero sa ngayon, alam kong kaya mo. get that uno kasi kaya mo. get that uno kasi may gusto kang patunuyan. get that uno kasi may pangarap ka. and lastly, get that uno kasi pinaghirapan mo ‘yan. get that uno no matter what it takes. i didn’t mean to pressure yourself, pero uhaw ka kasi sa academic validation haha. seriously, you can do it slowly and enjoy the steps that you will take to. nakakatakot pero malay mo, sa una lang ‘di ba?? nakakapagod pero at least, makukuha mo ‘yung karapat-dapat na sayo. hinga nang malalim mahal ko, makakaya mo rin ‘yan at masasabi mong “kaya pala kasi kinakaya ko.” ayon lang, goodniight my beloved. pahinga ka ha? don’t be afraid and too much overwhelmed to the weathers and seasons that you feel. mahal kita. with so much love, me.