A letter from Aug 17, 2023

AND YOU CALL ME UP AGAIN JUST TO BREAK ME LIKE A PROMISE SO CASUALLY COOL IN THE NAME OF BEING HONEST IM A CRUMPLED UP PIECE OF PAPER LYING HERE BECAUSE I REMEMBER IT ALL ALL ALLLL THEY SAY ALLS WELL THAT ENDS WELL BUT IM IN A NEW HELL EVERY TIME YOU DOUBLE CROSS MY MINDDDD YOU SAID IF WE HAD BEEN CLOSER IN AGE MAYBE IT WOULD HAVE BEEN FINE AND THAT MADE ME WANT TO DIEEEE THE IDEA YOU HAD OF ME WHO WAS SHE A NEVERNEEDY EVER LOVELY JEWEL WHOSE SHINE REFLECTS ON YOUUUUUU NOT WEEPING IN A PARTY BATHROOM SOME ACTRESS ASKING ME WHAT HAPPENED YOU THATS WHAT HAPPENED YOUUUUUU YOU WHO CHARMED MY DAD WITH SEF EFFACING JOKES SIPPIBG COFFEE LIKE UR ON A LATE NIGHT SHOW BUT THEN HE WATCHED ME WATCH THE FRONT DOOR ALL NIGHT WILLING U TO COME AND HE SAID ITS SPOSED TO BE FUN TURNING TWENTY ONE TIME WONT FLY ITS LIKE IM PARALYZED BY IT WANNA BE MY OLD SELF AGAIN BUT IM STILL TRYNA FIND IT AFTER PLAID SHIRT DAYS AND NIGHTS WHERE YOU MADE ME YOUR OWN NOW YOU MAIL BACK MY THINGS AND I WALK HOME ALONE BUT YOU KEEP MY OLD SCARF FROM THAT VERY FIRST WERK CUZ IT REMINDS YOU OF INNOCENCE AND IT SMELLS LIKE MEEEE WIND IN MY HAIR I WAS THERE I REMEMBER IT ALL TOO WELL CUZ THERE WE ARE AGAIN WHEN I LOVED U SO BACK BEFORE YOU LOST THE ONE REAL THING YOUVE EVER KNOWN IT WAS RARE I WAS THERE I REMEMBER IT OH DOWN THE STAIRS YOU WERE THERE YOU REMEMBER IT ALL