A letter from June 13th, 2023

To losce rhe hes ehav nidd’t ailuj ni meti own life ’ntwas gupro my at saw shit hsa csebeua ollyne jtsu i meti yraell so atth i ta nad ifrdne redfin irfsend raelly saord. Hnwe i em tnhki steoh of ustccaqeanani tbu now i so cear 14 i do ti wno ubota yreev ’tnidd btuao het ubato n’iddt lvoe em i adn fro hvea teafr ym s’htwa ot have he aehv the em ’ist tub i and neahpp ahev yad uqneaaac,nscit htta aebl mi’ ont nad i emas ltlsi layrle syta at ubt ’didtn had iknht ifel to imh it keat urth feselgni ’im ym i my i i ddi wnat btu eubasce ongan i botua feli srcae iefl eilk sutj adn tagink nda. ’im aayw anip ilke eth eevnr i hrtu eowsr vene ogse dan efle. Dna stuj tierdffne ti hwich a ckab ni be surht rmfo peahs neev to thwi emsco yuo alaswy onsthe ro em omer. Phpay albe i’m otn ot acbk hsti ttha to retiw i’m. N’ddti esmak did fli,e ot in dna emka wwo onhest my saw i i ti no i ueoissr ubt it nsihtg whis utb gitakn me nidtd’ i i be asuce yllear keil. Rgtae os ryeall ggino griht onw nr’ate elif. Phypa whit ydbo ont i het ’im ro awy my kolo. Jstu lfsemy in be to eusd i’m sa i nfcdtenio nto. Ghvani teruobl a in oot m’i yare im’ ngssns-eieuogdc gto lseyfm dutob shti myfsle of i nda in dan tlo a olt. Trhoteeg em did od osarne tsmmoeeis it tuo ac’tn hwy i i nad tngmehsio dtns’eo ti htwi tujs wsa be em ti ot and my ym he t’si eromnya so arneoym taulf wlel ro ahng nda iekl rondyfibe atnw anigthyn eilk dna we won flese feesl the. Fro dna are has abck tyaighnn eb si ntihg ihm tetorheg uesac yvre mhi htaw rgli eb ym it be smeoc nad tjus eth waht apts nhew eh toiiutans vgetihrnye kabc ew utb aveh seefl he nto say nac won i ie’v si we i ened hmi hte egtbgis heeorgtt rof own em i i od atwi ciesn teg dleor fo tnueiosq ym btu inniggenb anwt i sith urhts a ,eb ilwl no rehet rtmtea erus otg my ,tol wait i rof dsa htan nda b,kac ekil liwl right illw say loshco and who ttha i bnee otu ew **** ucesa onkw i besecau tdtanis woh re’we it’s mih ot ehuogn hsree’t psoupdse dan that wtha keli ofr nad forfe give dgmenae nokw tjsu i eheappnd jtsu at’nc kwon my vnee is all im’ taht ot he utb raef edsarc em cna nda no’td orme gte it sti’ nima dan i’ll nhatnygi klei a labe newh to. Ti’s guenoh that m’i of yevr nad reawa otn. Nad isftr eryiethnvg to sotl to orews nad awnan ’sthta i fea,s os leki adn in i i it oen pu do its’ hmi i imh otrwh ,hmi fsrit levo nad tub aveh gngetit od so atiw feoryndbi he ays niutoseq e’sh em gte cextedi m’i losa my ot i em teh i,aarmrge lot i stfri eovl fele swa i so i so ot i do like iogtnsmeh and all i tub aotub i hvea and a bseucea czray sdia amkse my tub ym now kon,w csadr don’t ltil itwh dna smleyf nad i ybfioenrd saw it ym my owh v ti’s iznamag ihwhc atht ofudn npoe wnaan a and nad anhecg. Or ’odnt my ni ’odnt kolo i i yithngan how i way lkei teh cefa leki. Aleyrl overfre antw yats to i us troegteh. Shti oeervfr i atwn. Tnaw eovrerf i him.