A letter from May 28, 2023

Dear Future EJ, yesterday was your birthday, the day your life started. your life had some ups and downs, mostly downs, as you pushed through kindergarten, getting detention for no apparent reason, then first grade, twice, getting held back because you were dumb, you started learning from your mistakes and decided to turn your life around, you got better at math and your reading level was higher than the people in the grade above you, and probably still is, pushing through 4th grade, then 5th as the pandemic hit, you used the pandemic to your advantage to hide your face, (because your ugly). Leaving your friends behind and moving to a new school, you begin to develop depression as it became apparent that you don’t belong do to you disability (dwarfism) you continued to ace all challenges thrown at you once you hit 6th grade, finding ways to make your life work, going through friend after friend, still not finding someone that cares, as you hit 7th grade you feel there is no hope for you, then you find your first friend at this new school, Scott, as some people get to know you more and you gain popularity, Scott becomes your friend as you find you have similar interests. Chess, your games started equal but you start losing because Scott is to smart for even you, you have fun for the first time after moving into this new school, you then find another friend that has an interest in you but mostly Star Wars, Mike, who currently is your best friend, you hang out together and become best friends over time, your friends don’t seem to like each other but grown to like each other over time, creating the 3 homies, as we make rules to co exist, we talk non stop, you start to like someone, (having liked multiple people before), this person happens to be someone you have liked multiple times but you have tried to convince yourself your not worthy of her, you still do, but your love for her is to powerful and you can’t forget about her no matter what you do. Your depression becomes more severe do to all of your mixed emotions and you decide to tell your friends your crush to get your head clear at just relax, though you can never relax when you have an older brother an two younger brothers, you have a deceased brother as well he isn’t annoying like your other brothers though. You find it hard to enjoy anything, picking up hobbies left and right, writing a book of your own, becoming more mature, you watch anime and play video games to relax, yet you still sit here in your bed, writing every letter, as your 13, but when you see this you will be 14 starting yesterday, the last day of this school year will finish tomorrow and you will become an 8th grader, hopefully in that year you can accomplish a lot more than sitting here in this bed. Just because I’m writing this letter to you doesn’t mean I don’t hate you still, because I definitely still do, but maybe one day that will change, just not any time soon, maybe you will one day find happiness but not today as this day quickly comes to an end, maybe you already found that happiness. But that’s the end, I guess I will see me in the future so With no affection again Past EJ.