A letter from May 26, 2023

hi leesh, today is the day you confronted your sister about her online problem. you had to break her trust along the way, but it had to be done. i regret not telling mama first, but what's happened has happened and im gonna try to work with it. during the confrontation, i told her that she needed to get her act together. i pleaded with her to see some sense, and to open her eyes to the fact that i didn't do any of this to hurt her. i did it to save her, and God knows she needed saving. it was very painful. i took almost an hour to recover from it. i addressed the fact that she needs to stop keeping secrets that hurt her like this. i had to state over and over that i could've done this ages ago, but i didn't, because I ACTUALLY CARED ABOUT HER TRUST. i could've accessed her email account and her snapchat MONTHS ago, but i didn't. i only did this to protect her. as im writing this the conversation isn't over yet. i couldnt finish it off cleanly, in one go. it had to be broken up into more than one piece. so i am afraid to initiate the next round of confrontations. i don't know how harsh the blow to our relationship is at the moment, only you know. tell me, was it worth it? did i make the right choice? did she end up getting better and realizing where she went wrong, or does she still detest me for what i did? do you still have doubts about her? i hope this brings you closer together in the long run rather than further apart. i hope she ended up coming with you to UofG. i wouldn't be able to handle the distance once more. keep an eye on her, and keep talking with her and encouraging open conversations. i cant take this anymore. i love you. please don't feel bad about anything, no matter what the outcome. you did it to protect her. your intentions were pure and ill keep reminding you of it. take care.