A letter from April 22nd, 2023

Dear Mada, As I sit down to write this letter to myself, I cannot help but feel a deep sadness and pain that has been weighing heavily on my heart for far too long. I know that I have been holding on to my love for Shaune for too long, despite the fact that he is not worth the pain and suffering that I have been experiencing. It is time for me to let go of the past and embrace the future, even though it feels like an impossible task right now. I know that I have been fighting for his love, but it is clear that he does not feel the same way about me. I have to accept this truth and move on with my life, no matter how much it hurts. I must remember that I am worthy of love and that I deserve to be with someone who truly appreciates me for who I am. I have to believe that there is someone out there who will love me for who I am and won't make me fight for their attention. Mada, I know that I have been a constant support to me through this difficult time, and for that, I am truly grateful. I have been there for me when I needed a shoulder to cry on, and I have always believed in me even when I doubted myself. I am writing this painful and sad love letter to myself because I need to remind myself that I am strong enough to move on from Shaune and find new love that will bring me happiness and joy. I need to believe that there is someone out there who will love me unconditionally and will never make me question my worth. I am ready to let go of Shaune and all the pain and suffering that came with loving him. I am ready to open my heart to new possibilities and to find the love that I deserve. With love and hope, Madalitso Mutiya