A letter from Apr 21, 2023

Dear FutureMe,I'm not doing to good right now and ...I hate myself.to put it short I'm starting to think my midlife crisis might have been at 5 1/2 years old but 6 is a better number so the plan is to live a short life .only I'm worried to lose all my friends it would be easier that way oh also I'm watching aot right now and it hit me hard when Rigna armored Titan didn't heal because he no longer had the will to live and when he stuck the *** to his head but the kid stopped him I don't know what to do anymore what's my purpose what do I Serve as it was also said in aot that show hit me with some reality checks I'm only planning on staying alive till after the con in October it's spring vacation but this whole week has been a living nightmare and I'm at mum's without my blade or anything to do I don't know anymore I think it's school that's kept me hanging on I lost most of my friends in the neighborhood kinda sad but all I can feel anymore is pain or nothing at all and my depression has gotten a lot worse in these past few weeks Anyways goodbye Sidenote I wrote this on April 21 2023 look how fast all this time has past