A letter from Jan 28, 2023

Dear FutureMe, 6 months from now it'll be June 28th, I mean that's if it delivers on the right date. I haven't done this in a while but I wanna do it again. Where am I in 6 months? The last time I did this I did a year but this time I decided to do a shorter amount of time but still long enough that I could experience a great change in my life. Am I even alive, if I am how am I, has things changed? If I read this letter I really hope I'm doing well. Do you wake up in the morning ready to take on the day or are you still disappointed every time you open your eyes and realize that you're still alive? Are you still having an existential crisis or have you come to terms with that? I'm ngl this letter is very different from the one I wrote back in 2021. It's crazy how things change; my first letter was asking myself if I'm dating someone or if I still have the friends that I have. This letter is just me making sure I'm okay. I'm trying my best to be there for you but it's hard it's so hard. I want to be happy, more than anything. I want to get to a point where I can wake up every morning and say "yes another day". I don't want to stare at the wall for 20 minutes every time I wake up because I'm thinking "why am I still here". I'm miserable, and if you ever see this, I really hope your not.