A letter from Jan 18, 2023

Peaceful right?

Hey my cherished future self, Mwah mwah it’s ur past self, how you’ve been? What r u up to now? What kind of adventures are you doing right now? I wish you nothing but the best. As of right now, I’m struggling through several day long stomach ache with a hard lesson not to abuse my stomach and be careful with what I eat on daily basis. It’s snowing…AGAIN. Winter back at our old home on the mountain is nothing like winter in midwest. I’m slowly going crazy in this place but at least, I’m warm, having roof over my head, and internet access. So, small victories for that. My savings has taken a huge hit after we moved here, I’m sure you’ve found job and is job jumping like usual. But I got to ask you if you managed to get car this year? Or at least getting closer to that goal? I still want car so badly even tho insurance and maintenance are a thing. I want my freedom. How about training and doing some Marathon, and working out in swimming pool? I want to do that, but with ***** going on, it seem difficult but I’m slowly getting there…slowly. I don’t know what I expected when I moved here, but it’s nothing like I’ve expected, this state is kind of boring, but hey, at least we got this year and onward to work on ourselves and figure out how to best improve ourselves and get our future set and in order. I know one thing for sure. Progress will be made in 2023. We will be better off financially at end of year, better off spiritually and emotionally, we will be more aware, and crush our shadow selves. It’ve been tough and rough. But I’m slowly taking it one day and step at time. Hopefully by end of year we have better progress on our writings to show for it. In the beginning of 2022, I have zero idea what to expect from future. And in the beginning of 2023, I have some ideas and desires, and hopes. Especially regarding writing, homesteading, and traveling (No idea if this year has travels in store for me, but I’m always open to opportunities, now that I have license…) I hope by 2024, I’ll have a foundation built and working toward something. I want to be the most lovely version of myself by the time I meet her. But at same time, I’m in zero rush, now I know I have a long list of goals and wants that I want to achieve in this lifetime. Being single can be incredibly awesome at times. I’m sending you so much love and hopes. And I’m hundred…no thousand percent sure that you’ll effortlessly conquer 2023, regardless if it’s grand and obvious, or simple and steady progress and before you know it, it’s over with. Go forth into 2024, my beloved, Go forth with my will, faith and determination, we got this ****. Always. We’ll make it. From your past self, 23

Epilogue

about 24 hours later

Hello, my dear past self!

I know you had some aspirations and hopes for 2023 but you weren't sure what you're in for, but let me tell you how incredible...

2320 su asw ot. . . As esmo ehras tihw tums ewll i msotnseriuf. .
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Ttha noe tsmoahc eryv hvae leik ni yare xetpce heort pdstctanieo 2203 elw,l ache i ofr uor rest we ewre ahtt the aohtsmc teh we tlea cilyulk mbremeer lsuua of ssiues tiem athn czrya tid'nd. .
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Eat nad i rmdpeiov i but ,ellw ym rfofet nda ot did tno dasy eewr rweeh tddi'n meos gtptniu sa ahlteireh eethr eat in eben ive' ahstib 'tis e,wll eoms ienrl,a ertetb eerhw vaeh days aignte. .
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Ew tlgdrseug ogwrn of refiudg lelba i ealb homsegtin tuiln d,isrredo atht eupcvmoisl a asol noiwgnk su tuo fater 'tansw shit utp wsa yaer ysrae eivtnagreo twih ntihg ubt iwth to to stih. Ulnit rlryae gruhny gina,a not ltlis tsih hrotohugtu eaotrev rfo og ti,hree cssnka ate i otssieemm nslsue a ew've llfu ee'rw ubt mrpodeiv onecsds, dna wthi reogspsr and lot rew'e nyol syda pfceetr si diadiloant ro. Ot ti erwfe esud nhta hseot raf era lit,ls days eb. .
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Rfo neev i ehom dcenleibri eavh ot ,stsire het ahd srenu rof oryu rmeo si tgo ti ta arf ye,t yo,u aised sewn esnci anmgeda ttah job a yuo a utanreyntlfuo svea eerhepeosku clyeopltem adn orworb hnat rac, oury y,ou ubt in jo,b a tiwh ot gdnnriia nisgva idd ntpio kreps, aagminz i sa bgegir e'vwe ew terfa rofm tsap a puitngt to m'i dna hte siht btu oyu rca vahe ogod arey hnta no rsipotirei a. .
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In erf,e hitw to nagecpis rac uyo yfuoelrs oecm dhea dergfo dan kaem uoy 'tesdno eavh rahtre hsa si geaviln jstu srift ot htta lmtane anht merdfeo scabeue hte doeremf omrf mrof cevra rinspo yoru hiaplscy uoy itbaeler ryuo. Deforem wee'v i'm sthi eiechadv dna htta ruopd ysa to. .
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Ti lclpyihasy a htis ytnlefurnouta llcykiu pu boj eahv ithw orf ew icxseree isth gonhue not to emit tihw so deayts ew 'ntddi eeddn su pemlrbo ghue g,ot tbu obj iavect ibegn osmewea we. .
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Cuh,m ot did 3202 the so yuo ew tdd'in our tish oyu htta in tefno eo,nz ew tse otu nhgtsi ni dan us yuro ithw yver wno tmoneni uoielsnrto hta,t ttah cmoftro otomcfr ezno wen ddexpnea gte rof era atth t,erelt fo armcfoolbet. .
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Rpat rfeat stmee ,that fo an iiencedrbl jnio time ot gnaacimp nigtanw nnoiel nnogude to now & erw'e ognl agmadne od nda htta gdrano ew fanllyi ampniagc yieekwlb fo. .
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Idabr encrfh nac to ew easlt btu ,lcaep a,rih how rgselgut much netlar od ta vsleeusor ni rsitf ont uro ihttwuo we hsit. .
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Ew csaeeub otg be ientplsahiro ruehds ouy rvee oyu itno rkeob oyu trifs nadtwe nad in eifidnrglr to ddnt'i u,p miet rfo eedzalri.
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All of si idaelrez, teh reu,sosvel ghuoht,r dcaef noaerht ptcsase tish atdkesr sarmaut uopn elfincdit eht wtne ellba ot of ungeoh (tsih were teh eolv abdsue iegbn is a fperluow si su ruesba nto atth our sngtro ti ti we fo gniruesff rdafia b,usdea htat ew we oyu deinef it's koya su, adn wdor ni hintg as yeth ordw thta erlidzae ot thksna we eewr oto ot. ).
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Naflyli uro evrab to we nad adn glnealehc psteod oerwt kllssi rornovwouficahe hetm tirgwni bcmeea esom rdbniieecl ncisfaf ugoneh ot. Ni and ndisref org cdnilbeeri oesm gdiean trrneu. .
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Drdnooetus ot in fridnse sncntceonoi tihw etgra nifesrd evah be vlgino hnat ouy nasem it yuo esud hwta tharre ****** to. .
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Fo rtmes os rcrde,ai i emoc nda su atth we we to portye with icroneds etmh the hcum pina crisemspteea hplede reowt moes. .
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Oyu bgrinnu ,tmhe ruoy mcea weotr and ot sfrti eddne etmh, g,oa uyo rrefdree fo ftare yb tihw hits rypteo s,wroor celyc ttah yinflla afinl ot trweo the hte twah ot eyprto raye ppedeahn brseau adn adn mtsre apin fo thta erltet 5 ouy ayaw vyre uoy eetwebn. Cseol leccy ot a ceam has yflilna atth leuatibfu. .
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Tow nriesfd a cseostl ueplco trsfi lyafnli pdpaeil mndaof uyor uoy to bgan ndeoji of fo thiw gbi oryu nda ziens. .
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Cmhu iwht twih oolk yuo hitrg owh dha and flee oyu ,inmeotn ceanch elsasgs rtetonofg you frselyuo to a seom keil ta ot so ssrvoeule gte lfee nda ewn dorrsunu ew kinp eovl mohe i ,in hyyisapc,ll fnodu nelrya m'i stloech we i ni onw, woh won. .
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Of eben toers me sah ayre dna i ni shti ohgrtw ash ese ot 2024 reilidncbe atwi wtha fro acn't. .
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Cracen etsrpne oyu, aoidesdng 2023 ressti tabidhyr as brhanieeratkg as to gto i d,eid hitw eswn her bkera hte must btu nreyla oyru. Ssh'e so ryc ont is yifaml hist ubt njeoruy uory be i will ueesbca shti nde, to uotringpps she sotrgn grith itsh and on and nwok hcni pu ot'dn rvvuies we eb ilwl nacegle,lh ruo be heogun for reh oyu, ihst wlil tdagyre iesr dna pkee the aidafr trguohh hogur to vgerie ot sthi ehre. .
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I ofrth in 2023 iwll fra llwi eyra taht sasrusp 4022 of ,4022 ti ldciieebnr shall oceiefcnnd a owh be whit go noit o,s. .
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To dna illw eepk apts up 2230 tath gbiseslns doevble ruoy ym yuo rof nkwo oyu ribng ,lsef chni esicrhh yanm. .
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Twhi ove,l.
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Flse rfuetu yruo.
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