A letter from December 3rd, 2022

Dear FutureMe, I’m alone in my room, on my desk, playing AFK on Roblox. Don’t know what this feeling is but it’s close to feeling empty. Empty. Maybe uncreative, or just talentless. The portfolio date is coming up and I really do not want to do it. Maybe I’m afraid or I’m not good enough. Art is my thing! So why can’t I do it? I am expecting getting rejected from that school anyways, but that thought pains me too much. I tried, tried, and tried, yet none of these ideas or books are giving me a spark. It’s already been a few months, or two years, since I’ve been thinking about this. I spent so much money on art supplies and textbooks just to get nothing out for only four pieces of the portfolio. Why am I so dumb? Have I just forgotten how to be creative because of my long break? I hope not. Well, to you out there, I wish that you aren’t being emotional over that rejection letter. Maybe college life will suit me and who cares about that letter? I do care. But, I hope you are a succeeding fashion student or designer! From Britney as a 17 year old 🫶🏻