A letter from Nov 15, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Hey you, It's me, again.. happy birthday mama! I sometimes worry about you, about where our life is heading, about what direction we're going to next but.. idk. You always make it through every ****** situation we've ever been in. Every moment you felt like your life is falling apart, and you cry and feel ****** and just think of all the million ways you can give up - you always push through and thrive. You're stronger than you think, I know this letter will find you in a time exactly when you need it and as I always say - I hope you're alive to read this. I hope that you continue to fight and grow. I hope you continue to be yourself and shine in every room you enter. I hope you continue to laugh, and smile and rewatch Shrek a million times. I hope that you know that you deserve this life that you have, I hope that you never once doubt your worth or settle for less. I hope that you're stronger, but you didn't have to struggle to reach that point. I hope that you still have amazing friends and I hope that you fall in love. You are an amazing person, and I want you to know that the past version of you will always be rooting for the future version of you. I want you to know that every version of yourself that writes these letters wants you to survive, and have a better life than we ever did. I will continue to write these letters in third person, not because I wanna be a weirdo but you literally change and grow every years. It's hard to even imagine that you'll be the same person when this letter reaches you. I love you endlessly! I can't believe we're 26 (jk you'll always be 23) now. I know we didn't expect to make it past 16 but here we are. I'm so proud of you, I hope that the situation with your apartment works out. I hope you're in a bigger and better place now and even if you aren't - I hope that you don't let this defeat you. You're a good person, with a big heart and too much love to share with this world. Stop letting people use you and hurt you - you deserve so much better and I hope that 26 is the year that you discover that. Love you so much - I want to cry writing this lol sigh. I love you Banana, don't ever doubt that. Don't ever for a second give up on yourself and if you do - pull yourself up because the future version of you, the one that will read the letter that you write after this needs you. Okay, I gotta go. Love you bestie <3