A letter from October 12th, 2022

Dear FutureMe, mom was just diagnosed with als two days ago. i’m falling apart. i feel like i’ll never be okay again. i can’t stop crying. emily just sent me this text and i lost it all over again at the implication that mom will be dead by january of 2024. a year and a couple months is too far away. that could be more than the time we have left with her. i’m ******* terrified of that. i’m so scared and i’m so sad and i’m terrified of the future i’m sending this letter to because when you read this she could be gone already. how could she be gone that soon???? it’s not enough time. i need so much more time with her. i’m going to text her i love her right now just in case you can’t. this hurts so ******* badly and i can’t imagine surviving it. my MOM. i need her. please don’t let this be real. i need my mom