A letter from Sep 20, 2022

I just woke up this morning and decide to write something for future you ! So how are you now ? Are you getting better ? Is everything okey ? Just know that i woke up this morning that im fine but not feeling well , because you from your past now are getting sick and having a fever . Dont easily get sick okey my dearself , I love you more than anything else in this universe ! Lets takecare of ourselves together okey , promise me that ! My future self , i wanna tell you something , i dont have anyone to talk to but i hope you listen to me okey :( This lately i dont know why i became so aggressive with my surroundings , like im um , easily get mad even on small things . I got angry on my friends too . Poor them , i know they cant hold on anymore because of me . I know that they will leave me soon . Im really sorry . I dont know how to save myself anymore , save you from past . Im sorry . My future self , im really sorry that me cause all of this happened , me that ruined our life from past , im weak . Dont cry a lot okey ? Love , dont waste your tears like that . You are strong more than anyone you know , i know you can get through all of this alone . If you ever feel alone , remember that younger you always proud of you watching you from here . She will say " Hey come here I wanna hugging you because you always doin great for us , imma proud of you watching you slowly moving forward and become more stronger than before . Go go and keep going forward love ! Save both of us and make us so much more happier than before :) " I wish i can bring you my younger self , to show that im so much stronger now . So that you dont have to worry about me in future anymore . Im sorry that you are so young to experience all of this . My bad , im really sorry . My younger self , im so thankful having you . From you , i learned so much things . So stop blaming yourself for what happened . Its not your fault , just know that you doin great for future you . Imma so proud of you too ! Wait for me yaa . I will help your future you be a better person soon and make you smile watching from a far . I ll come here again soon and tell what happen . Be home and wait for me yaa , no worries i ll be fine for sure . Takecare of yourself there and take a rest a lot , its time for me now have to make sure everything okey , not you anymore . You doin great already , now its my turn . Rest okey my love , i know you get hurt . Sleep well and have a nice dream . I really love you <3 20/9/2022 12:40 pm .