A letter from Sep 17, 2022

Time Travelled — 12 months

Peaceful right?

Dear Ni, you there? Didn't die? Impressive really. Today I am struggling. I am struggling because I don't think I've ever felt so alone. Because my friends have best friends but I don't. Because I want to belong I want to be a part of something but I really don't think I can. I thought I had found my people but apparently I didn't. Because I am strating uni next month and I don't want to be a teacher nor study that subject. Because I find it really hard to see others being so happy and having so many friends and enjoying life and me just. just surviving. i wanted to write to you because I don't believe you'll be any different. Because maybe you'll be dead. Because maybe you are better ? I hope you aren't alone. It really sucks. With Love, Past Ni

Epilogue

about 22 hours later

Dear Ni,
Yup, you're alive and I'm so proud of you for it :) This year was crazy hard but we managed and we coped and we made it! So...

Noe nda 'selt e,lyda ot reom fo has so, enisgnawr uyo ifle napehdep royu lgtlnei osem get lyno touab ni uchm owtutih tenqoissu rea,y.
Doayt rae aosl ouy nuigrgtslg tfrsil,y. Eth dayverye dursegtgl nda fo uoy last aery. Rea tsih we ortngs fo raxte cueebsa ayeh, os. Nda tggsnigulr eth aha nsgthi re'we smae that it's nufny see ot thiw. Gsesu cgehna nhgits evner eoms. .
Imset uyo het tsmo fo oalen llist otn utb yuo eefl lneoly rea. Fsnedtsiebr sifrbednet yuor dsftseirben tub oyu ruoy rea rehit are not. Sltli etsohrb htat uoy. Ganizam htme teh nhwe n'dot utb toghuh tehm yuo neev uoy rvyaeyed and evha are mtso laso unf vhae yuo tlak oyu edfnirs ounard ithw. Moeh eyht ouy nrgbi. Is btuoa tath ehtignryve and.
T'ndo tpar yuo hmiensogt elylar fo lstli eefl a. Utb ta mtei amse het. . . Thrteea ntfrifeed adn ew ew puog won vaeh so iesnfdr have bclu rsfornertmas lhetha ew aevh nad aveh yamn eht we eams our avhe we nad amltne dna. Ot lcaeps a rae egblon ratp mayn so so yuo namyt fo ew insght dna. Amny ehsom os we heav. St'i uutfiable.
Pu ouy haha teh dceson no agve niu eermsste. A dan dguerfi nwta eb ahtt dtdi'n rteecha lraley out we to uyo. And meit nxte edteixc ihst ot eew'r ,srtat wkee inu kacb eht btu i tsrsta eprsu am so sonvure. Oot ikthn lsocia sienmogth rwko i laleyr goenlb si i. 'tsi nawt i nda rylela ym desrnfi to wsih kmea rae,y stih ietggsb. I aeyr elfe cna ,in be will !!it tish taerg.
Reew' gto woekdr ,ydpele tldo ouy krow yingrt kyao idd oyaltr we steildne ot out ohme haedcwt etfl tpsen ewnt lfet you sloa and elsf and eepopl odoo,nnluy we ubt we uoy ilsams,cu iwht a autsitci ,dsik a rmiaocb teh whit nwo you uoy nda ghint up uoy ew ouy ot ot elnac ni ewohl hobgtu eth sxelaaus uyo we ofmr him yare ruyo erostf oru fwits dasy ear to fr,ineds funod and rvey ouy sels you and rou uyo aswm egt of adn lno,ea orf eplope, dha iagan, od 2 regw eo,nym osl oemh,rt ltso nfoud noulrfewd oyu ryea hmar, ti, chbun eeodidcsvr a dehearc a rdseat weidr dan asem out 100 rou hda dan a vige wthi loevd recedha to 3 hzorei reivr istrf in uin, eummrs ew pnigacm rgwiean evli lhpe asdrtet hte sowsh nbdeir up wnta ni tog wthi rcgouea you tnew dan etsb yuo ot newt ,usmacli 2 sith itm,se tath uto ew ogesddai,n dyas ni at ayegnmr lderonfuw ew ehsehrta ubato angziam adn in. So uodpr i ma.
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In so hucm uoy oevl i. Rfo nigivg hsit rtigyn uyo nda rfo rof up e,rya rfo otn ,iuigrvnsv atnkh. Can we itsh do. .
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Eevofrr nad uoy, aayslw oelv. Aer ohme uoy.
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Tihw e´lo,v.
Ni.

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