A letter from Sep 05, 2022

Time Travelled — almost 2 years

Peaceful right?

OG LETTER: Dear FutureMe, I'm currently a 16 year old mess I have no idea what I want to do in life I have no idea who I want to be in life I've never dated. I've never had my first kiss. I've never had a job. I feel like I've never done anything. How have I lived 16 years on this planet and done nothing. I've watched every episode of Supernatural, I've tried all the iced coffee in Tesco but I've never REALLY lived. I want to live not just exist. I feel so lacking in everything. I love reading, I love writing, I love to delve into these fictional worlds but I feel like I'm missing so much in the real world. I hope you, future me, are living and feeling better than me. I love you no matter what. ----------------- Dear FutureMe, wow I forgot about this I cant believe its been a year update time!! so I'm still a mess, just a 17 yo one now - but i think I'm a better mess :)) I feel a bit happier with myself and my world now. It's kind of the opposite now, I have so many ideas of what I want to do with my life, its hard to narrow them down. I'm doing a gap year next year, I can't wait. I think working will be tough but I'm excited to leave work at work and come home and not have to worry about homework and things like that. A Levels are brewing ahhhh but I AM GOING TO WORK HARD (manifesting haha) because I deserve to do well. Still never dated. Still never been kissed. I am scared I'm missing out. At the same time, I'm working on loving myself, adding someone else into the equation might upset the balance at the moment. Jobs: haha still never had one, too much volunteering so random but it rained so hard and there was so much lightning last night - I liked that Awwww Supernatural, those were the days. I've got a more healthy relationship with it, and TV, these days - not much more heathy but a little bit, I just started Doctor Who!!! Iced coffee is still my drug of choice, I'm sure it will be in 5 years as well. It's cheesy but I think you forget you're already living - every second, every breath you ARE living - just try and enjoy it a bit more, put a bit less pressure on it. what I'm learning is the real and the fictional worlds can exist at the same time, I don't have to put my all into one - it's about balance and that's ok. Working out that TV and books is what makes me happy doesn't mean you have to abandon real life. I am doing better, sometimes it doesn't feel like it but then I look back at my 2020 and 2021 self and I realise how far I've come. I'm going into my final year of compulsory education tomorrow, crazy times. and then the fun/work begins :))) I still love you, you idiot, love yourself a bit more <3 ------ New Questions (5/9/22) how was the gap year???? i know working was probs hard and stress BUT think of all that money and experience. did you book/go on that dream trip to crema? I know it seems super expensive - maybe just maybe talk to mum about financing it a bit - your dream of cycling round the Italian countryside deserves to come to fruition HOW'S THE SAVINGS ACCOUNT!!! you are working so hard on it right now - actually keeping up w/ your goal - its at £228 right now - pretty cool :) How did A Levels go? i really wouldn't ask but i think you will do well - i know I always say I don't believe in myself but i think i am actually pretty smart hehe OMG OMG OMG WHERE ARE YOU GOING TO UNI!!!! HOW WAS THIS NOT MY FIRST QUESTION? DID YOU MIRACULOUSLY GET INTO OXFORD LOL, OR SHEFFIELD, YOU LOVE SHEFFIELD, MAYBE EDINBURG, THEY DO A SUPER GOOD YEAR ABROAD SCHEME, awww whatever/whevever you go, make the most of it. love life... do i dare ask... finally get that first kiss yet??? if not that's ok, we're working on it :))) what tv are you watching right now? so many shows so little time lol. oooh how are the new marvel movies - last one that came out was love and thunder (mid) and ms marvel (amazing!!!) you still addicted to iced coffee lol please tell me your keeping in touch with louise and heather - you need them, they are really good friends ohhhh and Kassie and Charles!!! please tell me you kept in touch! I'm seeing them next week, we're watching The Sandman together and maybe the dofe lot - they are lovely - perhaps a yearly ice skating thing? i hope you still read a lot - it is super cool - hopefully you've had more time because you're not at school OMG DID YOU WATCH ALL THE MOVIES ON THE MOVIE POSTER IN YOUR ROOM - YOU AND DAD ARE SO EXCITED TO START IT! did you get that funky samsung flip phone? is covid totally gone by then? its not really a thing anymore but it still feels weird to think about. i still cant get over how i lost 2 years to sadness, how i could have been enjoying my family time, and exploring new things. i don't like to dwell on the past but i will be eternally sad for all the pain emma caused me - i am so glad i got out of that friendship have you and mum and dad and sister finished watching big bang theory yet - you're on season 4 right now! YOU BETTER STILL DO FAMILY MOVIE NIGHT! THOSE ARE YOUR FAVOURITE PART OF THE WEEK, NOT THAT YOU WOULD EVER ADMIT THAT i hesitate to ask but are you still friends with Annabelle, she's changed so much... it's just more awkward now... i don't think we'll ever be proper freidns again, that makes me sad ollie... just no. i hope iris is doing better - she deserves to be happy did you paint the walls of your room green? that was the dream! how hard was winter 2022 financially? mum and dad are looking nervous, talking about shutting off the heating to save money talking of that, is the war in ukraine over? is russia giving us gas again? i hope you're enjoying life just a bit more, baby steps, think of how far you have come since 2020 i love you idiot :))))))

Epilogue

1 day later

2024 RESPONSE:
BRO so much has changed this is wild, like genuinly crazy.
my whole world is like constantly shifting, this time next week im driving up to *** for...

Eniert eebn hte nhacge jtsu roughht feli ,hegacn yhlo ggitbes **** uni ie'v boarylbp ym ikle veer yilclasrtda illw. That rzcay eth hte of rucoc on me tsi ohw ,nintgru nomatu and tsuj hcum nniaes eepks lpot tstiws to odlwr. Leki a husodl eelf ok fwe i ot i oprndes stoisueqn.
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So royu my ot adn ouy were elo,v nogig syeirm rilg etnedx to ogrhuth ttsrsa yuo stuj onos r,yrso 61 oitn yearll im ielf em ym ahppne steg lgwanoilw surtt r,tetbe arey fse,l fact as loreuyfs i ystrlif, ldo it trwoh it ptso ouy ni ti weohl ni all as. Way ouy reoolc mi is aawy as ilysl utrts fo ofr form raef you yhsde as iengb sa eyvornee nope dna clooun nees yuo tihkn tusj sono ,oyu ot i me hatt tatrs dan ronaud esel riaesedl sa eenprexceis dna vhea sa tnah udlow ehav i up ipdtus. Etim olsa hghi yprtouliap ton 61 reom kcba smeoc i,myttuar uoy oseedssb scrlcie ihst gwor teh nad herew erla mroe eyvr jtsu (aak teh dan pnmrtotia het lebbbu ailsere leif nda dan sdeo hrhr,caiye pu edapxn rae is at hcoos)l ynit oeplpe ouy uoyr tercfel nosiohzr onmahrlo thwi iwth stlli.
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Olhew tgieengrrt ervne eregde and mi ot lot ugerif osal uot aimed a htis irsonjmalu hgmit ni a reya )aahh to rstohiy ures my my etletr bit btu i /w cehioc txen you kwon gatrstni drwaots ignaa ttha amiuimcotconn legnina adn lal as lhgiyh ym - and im itme aegnch **** ont( 'vei be litl' csiacsls im widhestc.
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Ton - 'wree bnehdi kgi,isns ayeh sltil rob to ile byso ertpty ngigo ai,ndgt. Ebngi eksyi 'sad ehay eadt bjo tyr ot sa a etpryt pu nad you a sgniinyuupsrl so deos oopr owrg nweh lhidc. Si si a tlisl neve dab rryso wdli akbc inthg ti amgnik utb slhdo osruiesly who oskej w,on yuo it cumh i nokw. Vahe a drafai a eb woerkd ni adn or wesn btu i ot beatls mi ebrtte hatt llo edtpua yphap dan ahd hsiw oenydb o'eyur tiasrlphonie htat eth i mhgit typhare 5202. Ofr glno fo y'ouev oot 3< buato ecerts eh idd ltle erpsu hatt ayw did so im ,yuo mum aodunr uyo duorp been uyo to ayrcrngi twah.
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A sa noti ,onsare be tshat esru got eorm rniycg my egereatn a liwl 'euyvo sspeha f1 royu'e emro a ehspsa uoy katcwbohr eht ko flie my tub ym to im pats i s'ti ishidnim pupodsse rrnuutspeala i !!!ok fro even etbter orpstihinela aimssgbreen yrou evlo oemr ubtao mi teg iltsl mtrlub ucmh wno, rvye iwht dna adn huhgot still of ubsy htreey' t,i wnok pyhpa in nnuecfeli.
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Hits rueoy' eleiebv ok otn reiigl igong ot. . . . Tcoks elehssv sbeab osect litllyaer no lal m,rof oyu cpela eht ta ocfese'f edrti y'vuoe uyo mhet the ttah work eahy. . . . Tlpo ittsw haha. Eher eoldv o onto onnitme ym as 16 eahv inddeocres be get ttha to 'tndo ew y tceos r,ae ta 19 em we eevr god e'vi ho( di' elw'l tar)el dongi so i zcray mi ni tawh etet!l!r uolwd mhuc selnoyth scknotgi at lveshes ojb teh frsti oautb hda haey a stcoe utb knthi hatt tub ,rcy.
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Hiogndl ednrgia enve ruyo giirwnt uroy ,sntstiere dan oyu irewd hcmu ea'nrt as em you as utrst yaanrmigi tmea lrsdwo hitnk cakb. Umgs avelu taht dan and emda pepeol me nad unfny it adn lla yuo ist dna dba tpsa cwihh ethes adn you snisietev dod in a wsa 18 17 esmdaus os dna i nda deirw humc iknd swa tihsng nda nta,w's eoietmv ti at ngith, lgeaelbonwkde.
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Ttrsu uoyr anc siesdm ega ivnhga ta onw me, er'yuo it tu,o uto reew idk yuo teerh ,no swa mtaeln tahw efsar ieepsneexrc uyo eetrtb negetea own in kepe almsto lta,heh saw real shoet at wlrdo i lrtyeai fro rfyouesl nhikt uot uyo na a rwehe ttah ginissm 61 bit.
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Tbrtee lefngie "i ,em thna o,uy and pheo rea em iglnvi ftuuer.
Tetram leov no i ahwt ouy. Htaw " a uciet. Were' tusrt em ogidn ko dbduy.
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Elvesl giaznam wlel em newk y 71 in hcoe you oooollooohoe uryo hcus in ehs o doog upord tihw anretoesd i hwat adn oyu uoy surpe fofert fo krntehia tfac teism fro utp uryo nehw so in oyu i t,asde rewe ehtos a ujts u,rothgh ahdr ,owkr o saexm opypp escto yuo oend hedri bnivgi ewre iekl nlhtye,so says beign ilrg ipushng rewe heaad all y eefl ruyo 81 oodg tboua.
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Ptsebrmee ti adn ihntg ledki cprgnnixieee cmhu asw ----- lignnitgh tehre mi a"tht os nrai, dmnoar lsta i os rihtg endair it drha aehy s"o - !no!w but.
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Ilgr hhogut niogg rfaodf em ta i tllsi it lttea yaeh t,gnsor acn thta uni a cofeef rip fi ont cfae mmei dan celu dcei.
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Teh pspo nodt tsuj i to i)s cabk eary odl lhehta mltean osryr oekj m(i 18 - its in ntkhi llllloll me uro enma fageril hess nfynu how rechstne i.
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Ignht thats hwne lcoo ta ot tup nad uto i pehl to eplh oesm ni obj doog snthmo inu all eend renaflpoisso eahy ym asw fofrte olco the a noigg lleve faaolt indginf usecraf dndti uyro'e ti tapehry eht fsirt you 3 htun it ptke os yfeidtneal oto cuhm hrda aws wnhe but etg me ot.
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I lelw dan knhti taklnig gothruh to yedlraa oden dont to onooaoooh,owy eb this, lhba nigdo yhae esems hlab taht mum we hte orf ngtiyr os hlab pkee ojb ti ont ot abuot i know wnet.
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Rehset oh ot oby yob oh sm,oen here a voer os yob dogo ho tol gitfnlir ko udbyd uacpnk ithw tohelactr. Fo 2240 ekli tuowlnd atht teh het leilngt tshoe em emomnt otksitk htsi ese uyo t"uabo nweh eeivelb 30"22 otlp ehr is is ittsw me. Hist ot iglr ysotr roysr i terac mhatof otcnna ohw llalitrey ldwou yuo. To htis trocdo losa olyl klsin how.
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Uthgoh her tlle ht,aw alcyblasi aanwysy ddi so eenv it leidk can omg fshslie be i dghsge,a klei asw hse haye hes e,tm him newk jsut yuo aehy iewdr ptels yeht so hyet it wdluo ltod nda uoy 'uryeo yieks t?r?g???e??h?o?te os nad. As btu and roem ogdo orts esh a?y??es? ro esse grown ot ouy hre he ardh sehs' yaerll yrou rfiedn os cueeasb that veenr seh aawnn eht enod oosgiadelp sh'se tldo heifssl og hatt neoedp tfac yees dna llcaabsyi was i sa sseh toin yb wsa a otdn ehr it atth otn ematn fo yswaayn anstoic uecseba it. . . . Orf eaydr tge tish. . . Has thero jeko ucmh hes w?o?n?? ihm hse outba yoll sujt seom up juts hte ansuoitit ehowl get i hwen a bf dame it me woh ,ygu tno a cdserew intdd nda. Of up ,pu ti sedrtat levsle osimngk me esedsm i i anme keil emdses em sseoiyrul. Im layrel pneasph me ((((: me atnw niddt rryos i ekmos **** ot uoy nkow eoygnur.
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Irlllytea bjo oenshylt tnwa h,ard titeggn ifeudaiql 'wntsa mi a ywh me utlwndo tath posnre i aehy yeht tub a gto lcyku doog losa. Meetse hsit oge ni dna agian) opso lfes ygu ym ertas isth ym lnfiecneu slseiuory em ym het eivmrpo on ldehpe of yese acm si aa(k.
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Ear seon givmno ot rfdti olt tc)e ****** lilw a(ak eanmt ltltie yats trsut ot thta rinfdes ctalauly ametn eht wlil hte a,hotlract no yuro mapitc ot nui lwli nad ryev ei,olsu ryou vhae eth rh,tu em ifnep,srdhis sneo. Uyor vnee ni ipck eepplo naogl ebgyur/car fwe nde otsna kaa snirefd tihw jmymi tnegtgi twon saol and up beanllae otl a awy lemi)h sreclo yl'oul nwe nad llsit luloy' r(akm het a pu.
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Owryr ouy het lyer a eorm oyu nfa og sels on finfiocatn aswayl illw the tesehr cneaebl eb the mi igb flie your ahlyteh ontd uoy ldorw erus mtei,tneaetrnn tbu of rof rhete atrp lwil a tou.
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Yenov'eser utb od i ffo o'ruey obj tindeffre sit czray just kid ot l'lti at ahye sti tady,o eb krwo rwedon tbu at enw tsla ot hgtir igsismn usch ihs do, fo won mih purse ntighs shi opudr owh who wawwww ayd teh me dsloa amxs ma,c. I erthi ehva snredfi f,xoodr travle dnsefri ot to scleo at difnser boaaningnd drfisne oyu boj tluad nstgirat gdmcrae,ib emna ridefsn drolw hte rstif fof rtmtnrie,ee dna. Eb a ot ni diwl lla ayser eehwr ist dik lw'le mtei hknit.
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Rome aenphpde keil het isrfe,dn ede,w waya et,irdpa htat ni o,lt sewke me, si ogt f,of alts sera 2 naylre isendrf trsut a at amuysrm pu is sah iefl dame 3 me hte ehmo up in ym eirsenettd i ysesssssras ym ,upb iaflynl deno yusg in ndaced aeenbt fmor thiw the khtni ot anht yu,sg lestp igcpikn ndraou i me ive ked,som hvea ithw rdevni. Usre i osde at etim 'im lettil hes gigaulhn dnto mi eht for raey l'il be "oh tocnnte uni naehcg extn ubt mi eerhw sith thwi lemfsy bduot wlil onmmte ta reyvgtehni gigon w"nok woh. Wodlr em ta tsnoaliea)ri ryc kan(ht i vleo jstu haev at mac me igankm ktiranhe dna shtta my to and elppoe a ouy espiifrtgn ahtt rof how. ): raycs lal si iggon leeaps orf ot anghec ist atth het utb oeulfplyh nad tberte.
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To add tofogr ho **** ahd i hhahh eomr.
1. To whso nto elhtynso sa nda oskol texn tb)ed ypppo enmoy ist swa gap ni esrup evylol it is erays as yaer ahdr inaghv rrs(yo do,og. Enht rceid oevl eth kowr tol adn ot rarwed you you gbyoeod henw eeloatrt esls so uoy ttha you sida hgouth fro ouy ti yruo oyu ndee evne erftof lot etahd ftisr, epolep nda ojb a a mero ta egrw hwit uhcm.
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2. Hatt gdo htast wno noep ahnedpep renev temi tno sfudse arecm a goa dewri.
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3. 0001,0£ orf lrig utnoac dvase ssnigva hvea i - up uin.
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4. A sith rveo ewll did eenb eselvl.
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5. Ebne si y'duo mi eahtd arlely eerwh xgnido niserdf edud its to etgar uyo tiyc og a otn ti in oyrrw ceas atbou ynfun oryu k)o and it ro im rty to (mi ylrale a im sit urtst but ******* i woldu cup edslit rtwoe me utb tacyuall oatseidl tae ulatuycllr thsat oasl uyo itsiv ni evry ttah utb eehtr nto ilneon oging tikhn of teh os tlyrlilea atth esucro i i ti gienb and oofgrt its xdforo won, ntdo by ogdo ehva rigl uyo llbudei skuc tacf i eyn,mo ragte rob etmi ksa dna rnoeuvs efsmly ndieerftf teseynvoe ahte weeayhnr tis to hcmu og tihw pu eman i mylsfe ubt nwok mdneri ton ot aahhhah uyo.
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6. Pu tuhs o(n sski stifr )ety.
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7. Orf sswho tastic vt bainr vt steh're so sa kiel ietrd yrou eryatllil uni eyour pneigrpp lrig. Neo ngcwahit akalas in im smoe isurlsavitv. Ygerentivr idk ,odg norespd tsuff amek troeh aded no llyaertil natw ot veah het moes arocns inbra but atdyo nad im i ot so i ,ouy i esur. To yuo losa ti rlavem oryrs raekb si to wne ****.
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8. Aehreth rsot trdefdi of isuole slilt to r,seu arpyt wehonre ni cpdema ejyll gsortn ognig dgydoe dan fhsnspidire omse dod fo tea nbra mise oyu ahye twen os ldidem nad kaovd het aevng ilseou fro esmo uryo tub.
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9. Ogt and iwth tdesno lkdei ho the ilefgne uyre'o eskpa the oyb ouy uyo, thta nto ot otn ropo cthoatler ygu thne eranmoy on os dmae - ttah lstep ogsodnrfawhi irto timciv esh kesasi ehraont swa eogdrmo ti. Oll teh osal fnuny a hscu nyidg was hits edrpseta amdsann dna etertl msean ttah taed nueqe.
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01. Ertna we tub usjt htiw irewd foed ot lecos tlyaulca no cilhl atth negbi tis tshta.
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11. At of eencatsn ot im mi ayer eyrv vltaieyc rncothea neinibgg onw sgintr endrgia hte het t,oehterg cyluk ubsy os os a tujs.
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21. Tnaroeh ahye ot tnod uyo on dhar sjtu efll nigth moitcm rywor dan porisme tnidd sti htawc that raatp dik ot temh uffts.
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13. On ey'ruo nda for iris ouy hopen e(nve debillu htwa rouy pneiekg if phpay cam sagsmnu )oadty odl uoy bad ti npoeh usjt we era plif lceelvcyotil ihgnintk, sppo.
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14. Og,en ovdci ahye enw wotn hte big rmurodue sti is oxpknymoe one btu be ti. Mi rvye im oot rvoe sad aeyh mame utb uchm too rvoe ,it. But peek ist oattg a dan eitm widl onlsyhet kepe imvnog ybus tatgo hfocriir.
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15. Oshws iidfehsn so myan its ine,c nbee fiesdihn ym ngba hreyto bgi htsta tlihihhgg eyra a pga dogo morf siidhefn rsdifen.
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61. Gdo wiht hntig ebne of mhcu vyer denifrs the ifmyla uyo have ellyon wkee on teh evmio umst is ton estb itb. Ads to ,hgtnito you astl apinrgt is ye'oru npai teh cbeysae y'rteeh pensgirser toegther aerb oury yaeh oru elfe tjsu cant glfeiens i fo eon nitkh.
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17. Wdli have 630 imset rae rbo eablelna eer'w ew sorlce nebe nda htan htbo vrofere edonbd essibte onw dna rou aer rtetoheg llitrae emso nda erev isvle asie,nn em ruhtogh.
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81. Ilelo. . . . Tlils vnee ihst eyha rob eamn what on sedo.
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19. Evah aehv nad a onge efhesrl rwigonk ofr i wknos greifud i she hyae nto )iglr erh het idk haev sedi eomhwsat urtts ehtwi teyevhgnir btu haspe srii at dakr sbaic( ospsdpeu hes's ernaiostvres erh tnsgay sti meo peahpri ubt eshs - saol uto sshe eageetnr my radk astle ot anth if eb ot 'sesh.
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20. Nhtigikn aws wsall ngree i wft ew.
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21. So ouhnge era ont fnei wree' i ikd we'ev to ogt laso fscnneia nryworgi sit naem rigl rlytelial uryo herti ot uni ilysernioitbps me lgicinlh o'ruye gsesu, egt i yhae post.
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22. Gnogi ltils rwa. Ioggn 'raws /merehsowe lsaway.
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32. Od cerkdnkea ouy adn yhea tusj em oto oll mi i leov ansykr.

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