A letter from Aug 14, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Happy 18th birthday!! I wanted to be the first to say it so you wouldn't be disappointed, or maybe you will be. Only once you haven't cried on your birthday but the year after bit you in the arse and cried three times as much :( I hope this year is better, different. Please don't cry this year as much as the last and previous years, I feel like you will run out of them. And don't be disappointed when you don't get as many birthday message or presents I know you love them but it hurts just as much when you don't get them. I hope your birthday party was AMAZING and you felt the start of the party because you deserve it, you deserve everything but no one to give it you and I'm sorry. If no one says it to you, past me will say it...I'm sorry, I'm sorry for all of the pain you have endured and I'm happy you are still here. I'm happy that you are trying to achieve all of your dreams despite of the heavy anchor holding you down, drowning you. I believe in you that you will get into med school and achieve amazing A-level results. I believe that everything will get better and you get to be happy again, it's your turn now! Even though I'm writing this with tears in my eyes and sad music blasting in my ears I'm hopeful for you and your future (it's atmospheric tho) Remember this, I'm your number 1# fan and I will never let you down anymore. I love you and happy birthday again!! Enjoy! :)