A letter from Aug 09, 2022

congrats, hi self? how are you doing? if you are curious about how you are doing right now, honestly, you're not doing so well. you are having a nervous breakdown right now. i'm going to send this letter to you when the 22-23 school year ends. you're lonely. you don't have any friends right now, but i hope you will have at least one in the future. i just realized how bad i am at socializing. any changes in the future? you are a sophomore right now, and you are going to be a junior when you receive this. i mean, try to understand me. this is all new to me, and the education system here is really different than in the philippines, or should i say somewhat more advanced.. you are going to be fine yourself. i will try to socialize tomorrow. i can do this so the future me will be proud of myself. the main reason why i'm having a hard time socializing is because of my accent. i still have a filipino accent, but it's okay. english isn't my first language, so what do you expect? i don't feel very confident speaking english because when it comes to speaking, i keep forgetting the right words. but when it comes to writing, i can say that you're alright. you're doing well. i really hope that my future self has friends while reading this. i hope you will write a reflection or reply to this letter when you receive it. this is something i never thought i would go through; it's like the fictional character in books who walks alone and doesn't have any friends in the corridor or cafeteria. it is so embarrassing and awkward, so i really hope you make at least 1 or 2 friends while reading this. fighting!! and one more thing !! you remember what ourself promised right now? that when you get adjusted and used to it and meet a lot of friends, don't be like other kids who think they are cool. i hope you still don't know how to cuss and choose your friends. and last, when there's a new student or transferee, please talk to them and be friends with them. don't make them feel what you're feeling right now.