A letter from Aug 02, 2022

I am writing this letter only 4 days away from my top surgery, I am nervous like really nervous. I don't want to say this in the wrong way but what if it gets messed up or I regret it? I'm hoping not and I've wanted to get this done for years. I wish my dad were here to see this. What would he think about it or what would he say to help calm my nerves at a time like this? I wonder what future me will think about this or even remember how terrified and excited we were right beforehand etc. How is it going is there any regret? Honest heart to heart have we quit vaping because for the surgery we needed to stop for a week before and then for 5 weeks after and Idk how long that'll last, I feel like it's become such a crutch. I'll probably write some letters in the future about recovery as well so look for those in the upcoming future. To be continued...