A letter from Jul 27, 2022

Dear FutureMe, It’s been 2 months and 11 days since you unfortunately found your brother at home… how are you? Genuinely.. I really hope you are okay :( I’m so sorry you went through that. Have you been able to actually take time for yourself and process the whole thing, I know the day it happened it was just crazy from there.. I’m so sorry still. How is k? How is your sister? Is she okay? I know she lost her boyfriend earlier in the year, I hope she is okay as well. It’s 7.27.2022 12:47 pm. You just thinking about a lot of stuff right now. Life is literally so crazy and so weird. Have y’all moved to Austin? How’s dad? Is he okay? I hope he is. Is mom Still alive.. lol.. jkjk I’m 22 right now, no kids, no “real” job, I’m a janitor, let’s hope you have a way better job bruv. No boyfriend, no nothing. Life sucks at the moment, I wanna pass away 25/8. I don’t wanna eat, but it’s all I do and it’s so tiring, I hope you are taking care of yourself. I really hope you don’t blame yourself for what happened. It was not your fault. In the end there was not much you could have done. You did your best to save him, please know that. You tried your very very best. It’s okay it’s okay it’s okay, breath. Keep his memory alive. He died may 16, 2022 around maybe 2:30-3-30 ish pm. He was only 20. You shouldn’t have had to find him like that, especially being your little brother, it hurts my heart thinking about it, it makes me really sad.. I hate that he had to go out like that. I will never know if he actually did it or if it was accidental.. who knows, only he does. I was the last person to find him and give him cpr, I saw his eyes very briefly and I will never forget it. I will never forget hearing his last breathes.. ever. I’m so sorry I really hope you are okay I really really do. It’s okay. What is up? What are you up to? Job? Kids? ( no never lol) boyfriend? How is dad and sister doing? You make good money? Life is literally ughhahahahahaha. I hate it. This is a letter to the future me, so I hope, future me, that you are doing okay now.. I hope you are okay with what happened p, I hope you are not blaming yourself. Much love to you and everyone.. I hope you are all good. ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍