A letter from Jul 20, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Hello, I'm not in the best place at this moment I've been in some small fights with my boyfriend, Noah and I'm wondering if it'll ever get better We used to get along very well but now we're not that THAT close We fight over stupid stuff like games and stuff, but after we're done calling I cry out of guilt I know I'm not the victim and shouldn't cry because that's just straight up stupid but it's still a very awful feeling of guilt that never goes away Today is 20/07/2022, and he got mad at me over a game Is this manipulation? Does he love me? Am I being dramatic? I think the last one is the truth and I deeply hope it is I love him, I really do But.... Are the feelings mutual?