A letter from Jul 07, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Hi althea! Next month you’ll turn 19 na. 2nd year college ka na! Your previous self a.k.a. me wrote this letter sa summer pa. You haven’t turned 19 yet. How are you? How’s your heart? Are you still struggling? Nahihirapan ka parin bang wag isipin ang past? Naiisip mo parin ba siya? Umiiyak ka parin ba? Kasi while composing this letter you’re still crying e. You’re still hurting. Ano na kaya progress mo? Are you getting better? To be honest, me, your previous self, nawalan na kong pag asa na maging okay. I’m hoping na by the time mababasa mo to, may changes, di ka na nalulungkot, di ka na umiiyak, di ka na nasasaktan. Thea, ever since you broke up with “him” di ka na tumitigil sa pag iyak, literal na everyday gorl, every night. Kamusta nga pala yung performance mo nung 1st year? Your previous self wrote this letter na wala pang updates sa grades mo. Pasok k aba sa dean’s list? You know what, dean’s list or not, be proud of yourself ha? Bagsak bagsak ka nung semi finals beh kasi broken hearted ka, iconsider mo nalang sarili mo and do better this time. Kamusta 1st sem sa 2nd year? Mahirap ba? Do you have new friends? Nagging prof mob a si tita joy? Do you still have anxiety attacks sa school? Althea, whatever it is that’s happening in your life rn, it’s okay. If umiiyak ka parin, nasasaktan and nahihirapan dahil sa past, okay lang yan. Feel all those emotions until di mo na mararamdaman yon. Don’t be too hard on yourself ha? Be okay. BEH THIS IS ALSO A REMINDER NA WAG KA MUNA MAGJOWA AND FOCUS SA GOAL NA MAGING DEAN’S LISTER, OKE? But don’t put too much pressure on yourself, just do your best, do everything you could. Rest but don’t give up. Wag ka na magjowa beh, sisirain lang nga mga lalake yung buhay mo. You built yourself for yourself, for you to be strong, for you to be okay. You didn’t build yourself para sirain ng mga lalake. Alam kong naiinggit ka sa mga may jowa, pero beh, wag. May pera ka, you know how to live alone, you know how to cook na, you know how to drive. You’re a responsible *****, who doesn’t need a man in your life. Pero te, if ever man may jowa ka ngayon pag nabasa mo to, sana pinagisipan mo ng mabuti yan. WAG KANG PUMAYAG ULIT NA MASAKTAN KA HA? Your previous self’s last wish for you is dumating na sana yung time na tanggap and mahal mo na yung sarili mo. Sana matupad mo yung mga wish mo, sana maranasan mo yung genuine happiness sa sarili mo at hindi sa ibang tao. I hope you’ll grow and you’ll be okay with being alone. PLEASE LANG WAG MUNA MAG JOWA HA? 2ND YEAR KA PA, MAY MAKIKILALA KA PA SA 3RD AND 4TH YEAR MO BEH.