A letter from Mar 17th, 2022

waited for 113 days for you to get to read this. i chose this date, July 8. i really tried remembering it. hello mj :) i am writing this letter to you. i hope you are doing okay now, and please always do so. i am sorry if ever i did something wrong, or made you feel wronged. sadly, we split ways. but i am grateful for what we've had before. it is not easy to let you go, but i had to, and you wanted it too. you wanted to prioritize yourself. you wanted to be ready. it is not a bad thing. what's wrong is you made me a fool for your words. you push me off the cliff. you come and go as you please. leaving me behind & confused. i felt like i was either a stranger or only a friend to you, who's stuck in between you. it is strange despite that, i still found comfort in you in those times, thank you for that. i can't and i don't hate you. no heavy feelings. start to make yourself secure & happy. focus on yourself until you are confident that you are ready to love someone genuinely, and it will not be me. everyone deserves to be loved. don't make the same mistakes again, mj. you knew what you did wrong, but you don't know what you had to do. stand in your commitments. no excuses for your actions, because someone got hurt. it is never okay to give mixed signals. no one deserves to get treated like that. i know that you are struggling to express yourself. as i also struggle to understand you. communication is important — it is to feel someone understood, secure, loved & worthy. don't hesitate to express yourself. we have different love languages, different ways to express our love for someone. you have your own. i remember you sending me a picture of the sunset because you knew how much i love the sky, and it gave me butterflies. you also sent me a video of a kitten because you knew how much i adore cats. you patiently waited for me to talk to you again as i am recollecting myself at that time. i appreciate all the simple things that you did. those small things, mean so much to me. thank you for sharing that side of yours. you are a good person, mj. you were good to me. as i care for you so much, please take care of yourself. i am trying my best to be okay. i am slowly moving on, waiting for this wound to be healed. thank you for making me happy & for some memories you've shared with me. i gave you my trust, hoped that it'll last. we both tried and stopped trying. and now, this time, for the next girl, whom you'll love, love her with reassurance. ending this chapter. be well, cha insert = https://youtu.be/feWAHyiwiWM