A letter from Mar 12th, 2022

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, Hi this is your 17 year old self. How are you doingg. I honestly dont know what to write... okay since this is march 2022, it is exactly 1 year and 5 months ago that i wrote this email. Oh wow. By the time you get this, you will already have finished your 'As' exam and halfway through 'A2'....thats crazy. I hope you are...happy. like, truly and genuinely happy, like you always wanted to be. Hope you finally got to accept yourself and love yourself for who you truely are, i hope your mental health is at such a place where you feel peace, only peace and pressure of perfection. Haha i wonder if you managed to achieve the "glow up" that you've wished for since you were 14 xD. Thinking of that...so you will turn 19 huh? I wonder how that feels. Did you get your braces off?? How does it look? Does it feel as good as i suppose it feels? Can you finally smile fully without feeling embarrassed? Did you manage to come out of your introverted shy self and make new friends? Gosh im dying to know the answers i wish i could meet you. Did you get that iphone13 that you so badly wanted? OH SHOOT YOUR 'AS' RESULTS ARE ALSO OUT!! DID YOU MANAGE TO GET STRAIGHT A GRADESS?? Did you....manage to get a boyfriend maybe??- AAAA WHAT AM I THINKING. This anticipation will probably **** me🥲 Okay jokes apart...i hope you no longer cry yourself to sleep. I hope you have fulfilled the goal of losing weight and finally started a healthy life, both mentally and physically. I love you. Im proud of you. Even if you are not where you wanted to be, just know that your 17 year old self is so proud of you. Thank you for not giving up. Better days are coming💕

Epilogue

15 days later

Well hello to my 17 year old self. I wish I didn't have to disappoint you like it I'm going to rn, but I have to. You had too much...

Form nicstteaoxpe edangch a em n!ywsyaa otn tol. Fof sye tog rbedseamrsa eegifln aecrsb we we dna thuitow yse nac uro lniafyl wno miles.
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Hewre nsed si ttha doog eth nswe utb. Noeih,p teg astrhgti rea wgol tsill teh in twero etg d'intd gte ayn ahtt ont we saem oyi,wrfbeedn tetlre hvea pu, d'tndi hte egrsda etg ew fedisnr i'ddnt rou ulndahf we itentroevdr did uor at uoy ew oru ddi and ew emit a ,xesma.
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'sit new a upleoc i mstnoh tub uyo oga wkon w?ne ttah decvodrsei stih feil no tuokloo wast'h. Me eenb ynol i ouy dha 71 hmcu orhts husc pu elrtet u'nltdwo a ohw smhton veeblie hsa ggownri that hte but uyo emit ti ni nematl icens etim oerwt. Hte sey ubt het yam enbdyo iv'e h!cmu i gdhance ehdgacn eth it,rsnropeld,sifellopahnf,eiepeis no veiw maes in awy os odeitus i ioecnnrogti lilst kolo eht ahs idnesi. Rtoew how uy''o elgorn etisx ,sith on. Rea and le,ngetnitli eitsako,hglen,nociinrd,lfnmrnewoaildyrtiote dhadee ew colo own mero. .
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Otn eht phyap miacrel ot eddpen me saw portnmiat any hgtni i ot tsmo kaem no lnerta. Ni daurno dsttrae nihgts me i nigindf sasepnhip aslml. To i dn'to creols grnwoki neng"u"ei hawt eslfe yyavrede nespiahps m'i stlil tbu nkwo l,ike gte ot it. Lsitl to i cabseue asdy seepl, adn nto i'm m'i eeelhmwrodv rea when btu htru yoln ueecsba lmyfse ehret 'sit cyr. Tel htru no i grolen rtohes u💕s.
A racys nlhsteoy, is drolw sith. Thmnos 6 tyunocr the 'lli adn nitwhi fo eb niithw oevm 21 hs out s,thomn itrnggaadu. Hynetvegir rmoe ,npsasgi tnieggt dna more si earl teim sa is. Rsacde m'i. Opts i wulod btu tle ernve em? tath. Erayd my ot ngotsr lhagneecl nad wthi atke ihgh head im' isfst verye. And aveh issnphepa hte we etseh noe nearl owh to haev oru s,i ,seruvesol me hpayp !naleo eb to ngith mthsno cereta utahgt.
Rfo mtosr dna ti tuaebiful mchu thsi so of how 'vei ebfero a htat to somt em os uchm se'trhe athkn tujs tt💕lree me iitnwgr asycr ceah,vie otg alaysw aeadh eth yuo luyg rnaiwbo nda m,e nrmeided. Btu ttha ton ,be be yam oyu dwtnae rhwee oto fra reihet ani't em i to. Su orf ti 'lil od. .
Nedeid ertetb are ayds 🏻m🤝oicng.

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