how are you?

Time Travelled — 5 months

Peaceful right?

sissi, is your mental health okay? are you still in love? tell me about it, i want to know if you're motivated enough to work in college, wake up and feel alive, brush your teeth. is your physical health ok? does your back hurt still? you've been through a lot. make sure to take a break, i hope you do sometimes. i know i don't and i have to learn how to, hopefully you've achieved to be less self critical and more accepting of yourself. keep loving alvaro, please, he deserves so much and currently i'm sure there's no going back to being single, there's no way you two will ever be just friends again, so make sure to use what you have in a good way and support him as much as you can. i recently noticed how heavy he feels and acts, he acts as if he were the big man of the house ever since his dad passed, but he's just a kid. love him, sissi, hold him close, make plans together. TOGETHER. you can't allow him to take responsibility for everything, i beg you. how's your relationship with mom and dad? vane? did you ever get to tell jaz the things you needed to say? how do you feel? is rodo okay? are the kids any closer to you? did you get your permit already? remember to take piero on a road trip some day, he needs that. he feels like the big man of the house as well, don't let your nephew feel that way, you're responsible for that kid. you missed mom, huh. i know, i understand. how is she? how's your separation anxiety going? did you ever figure out how to handle it? did you go to therapy? are you working on your fear of ***? i love you, sissi, please take care and never forget how much you deserve. i did, for too long, won't do it again. tell me everything, please. take care my love, have a good life without regrets. -sissi feb 12, 2022

Epilogue

over 2 years later

hey, sissi. it's been a while since we talked. i miss you so much, you were such a bright person, a light that would shine bright despite everything....

To m'i i emospir, preyl love yt,ghreinev angno.
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Eraymno freonbydi lvraoa rou tsn'i o,n. Ebauces a ngsis ahd tath see ndiuer eh niogred asw but ealylr uyo atgre rhtu ruo to nowk obge,cudah elba the mteh nda weer yuo eh us ew het i prsfeihind ,defirn saw aydlb but eh. Fo dam oursfley uyo ftsir eaceubs tup at iqtue a,htt yuo ueo'hldvs mi'.
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Nac tbu incsele to i rfom utqei ym i ortfh krow cbak go nui ,otu nad leabyr go to eho,m 'im i ucllaaty eevr lyno tdrie, otg. And vgae atht eicprenxee t,tah you neo ,eranl bjo so :htbo egt ogod bad uoy to ladyb uyo ceosh dd'nit uoy hintgs a to dtawne dan. .
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Ni mom go i ohaertn eht itowuht ni dad yheret' i hemt rae thme ady dan ignmco vree nwo, back y'ehtre ,feas eavh evro a ot and adn rmof othmn hgisnt attess, aer adb i rhte,e ndt'o isms lyxcaet ton hsiw. .
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So tow too fo nyma goa hda it dianseodg tisem oyu so otg gniod siroredd won, 'mi oyieprlstan yuo crueso aedm and i've 'stath lerrienbod sdaecr teharpy, ysrae btuao htwa. .
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Eht euspr yuo adfed im' iel 'im to ont ,away elfi u,yo smea 'stin aesbcue ta rangy towihtu uoy iongg. .
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Nioept,alt eb atth hgtoetre bgirneka tjsu i on ckab em scs,erop how htiw own who ehop to ym ymlfse ot prtaa 'mi taht ifle mtei ym nergialn eht m'i hitw dan lful tbu ptu lslti ntrreu in adn ot vlei i acn uoy.
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- iisss.
Bef. ,h12t 5202.

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ben:

about 1 year ago

I’m rooting for you ! I hope you find your light.

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