A letter from Jan 4th, 2022

Dear FutureMe, Hey Maxx, Current pronouns: they/he Current *********: demisexual/queer Current relationship status: very healthy and happy with Jonathan Health status: Cured of CVS, Still SUFFERING from EOE. 1 endoscopy Current close friends: Mary, James, Kalon Current family: Mom, 2 Grandpas, Jason, cousins, and all that I am happy in life right now, but not exactly with my family. I feel like my grandpa dislikes me, he says that I dress provocatively and that I eat a lot. I'm just trying to gain weight :(. With my mom I feel anger and resentment, she takes so much from my grandpa, money, time, energy. it's not fair to him, I don't want her to die or anything I just want her to be a grown-up and stop taking away from my grandpa. I'm also struggling with my addiction, I've relapsed I don't even know how many times, I wanna stop but at the same time I don't. I need to stop el oh el. I also lost my best friend of 10 years because she couldn't use my correct pronouns. she replaced me with the one girl she said she wouldnt. EL OH ******* EL. Anywayssss, on the bright side I have amazing friends who aren't bad influences or fake. they are pretty great, they always include me and never down-talk me or insult me. They are friends for life. I also have the most amazing boyfriend in the world, he doesn't do anything to hurt me or make me feel bad. He's funny, extremely nice to me, and not to mention he's so freaking handsome. we've been dating for only two months but I'm so so so happy being with him. 01/03/22