A letter from Nov 8th, 2021

Second love?third love? how many do we have? i am at my second and it already feels eternally.Its like I will not know life if she won't be there.Falling in love is just obsessing over somebody's everything.How is it like to look at the sky and be so thankful that u r sharing the same sky?SKY.It has become our house.I told u first that "the moon is beautiful,isn't it?" and I don't remember clearly ur reaction but i remember when u first told me u love me.I think I didn't cherish that moment properly. I should have hugged u and kiss u and tell that I love u more.U r so pretty that I can't stop looking at u.My mind is so dry and tired and then when I think of u my stomach is invaded by all kind of butterflies. I wish u knew how much I love u.Is it ok?is it OK to love someone more than urself?is it healthy??Cuz im sure that any flower reminds me of u.Any happy dog I see I feel u by my side.Ik that u would have given love to that dog.How can u be so scary and yet the sweetest person on this earth.?I love u that's why I cant leave u even tho this **** is not working.Is not working but im always trying to make it work.But I'm tired.Maybe ull break up with me someday and that day will be the saddest day of my existance because I couldn't fight for us.I couldn't be mentally stable so i could dedicate all I had for us.But never forget that my life is senseless without u in it. to my 2nd and last love of my life <3