Dear FutureMe,
This year has been rough.
COVID has been bad, although it's kind of dying down. I have already been double vaxxed. I hate wearing masks wherever I go.
You're in Grade 10 now, aren't you? Wow, how it must feel to be 15. You're one year away from your learning permit for driving!
I hope emotionally and physically you're doing better. I'm still going through some depression and anxiety, although not severe depression, but a lot of anxiety the past few months.
Have you shifted yet? I just know I'm getting really close. I've been writing down almost everything that comes to mind in my script. I hope I'll shift soon. If you have shifted, what method do you use? I know it's kind of pointless to ask because you're in the future and we can't write back and forth like normal people.
How's Allyssah Smales? Aiko (Michelle, although she likes to be called Aiko or Bunnie)? Are you even still talking to them? Are you dating anyone? Have you had your first kiss? I hope you have. Have your art skills gotten any better? I want to sculpt and do watercolor paintings and draw cool stuff, but I can't really bring myself to do anything.
Have you made any new friends? Have you achieved your Light Academia style aesthetic dream? Do you have a cat? Another dog? How's Miles? Is he okay? I hope he is. Are you still obsessed with Bakugou and My Hero Academia? I hope that phase never ends. :)
Am I annoying? I hope I'm not. My self-esteem is pretty low. I hope that gets better in the future.
I love you. Keep going, you're worth it. :)
Epilogue
10 days later
hi me!
im doing much better now. ive been in the hospital twice this year for mental health reasons, and you wouldnt be surprised to hear that its not great....
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Shdieft i aehtnv tey. Yralle yrt yomnrea i tdon. Wehol ofr ovle onggi i htat ohtghu tgurhoh uoy ahsep. Aer rsue rouey etghoismn uuqnie nda fsbleei oyur erusp. In keil iev sflyme gaiiignmn i tehro slto het jsut cnoaessir ubt gsuse i vnamotiito. T,hgohu sltli wnko oigng i ekpe ouy t!tha.
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Sue tbu lhlaysa txfneil nomey,ra nda hre i cutcaon odnt sllit a)(lom lakt i. Dna for aetkld i ntvhea earsy oaki. Stih me lotrhsy oyu featr erwto leettr seh to pirdpseaeda. Ti i hntik dtno konw tsoehnmgi adb i wtha wsa relyla haednppe, tub. Oh lewl. Ndgio sehs onw i brtete pheo. Of otbh hetm. .
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Saw mi eayno,n gao a tbu seekw ntgdia i lpcoeu not. Atngi lyug he boerk ucbseae on ktinh ti wsa aikdn lyutalac eh we own glfa i a acbk nda ttha asw oot pu dre. Sutdpi nmdoocs rewe eh httouhg. Eklid the see acpel ifrts i in mih cvuldeo i ndto woh ylarel. .
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Ym 2202 i ksis! in it neerct gutohh, os haev efidneitly nto dah ftirs. Kiss was teh utnco subeace i it tndo adh i assluat sluexa oecdsn. Ot tisem i hyw ohset nwte hastt iashtpol hte. Si teh muhc atuarsesl ughoht im beertt adn dhnespui nwo gtiteng. .
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Koay i issllk tar ssgue rea ym. Enw kokbchesto dlyszite got i atls enbe a htings aehv and ngdaiwr eewk arylle ntio. Yalerl hwit dan rateg fo i uto a ti trunde tootam tlos redw lrcosuo zdlystie. Cseilpn 'eoyur gseus of a i ncbuh no ouy egt oamndr idgon uoy agpe odlcureo iead a atsth no thwa thiw lsap nhwe waht. .
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Ei'v aemd ewn many enisdfr os. Tmeh pre!urdsis eb heer dyou oyu rfo of lsit omse ill. .
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Iorle,v ,lmia ,rrowa htr,u if,gnfri ,axseli ,asm as,h noantn, adn actl,sert ,oel mtwteah ei,shtla. Erusp tehyer iecn tasth lal dna lla fo tno enve !them. Vnee gothhu tcoless in byaurefr steemsr,e she teh ned ym msa gtrhi ,nwo oimvgn dnreif het is of at. Igthm be we ew oianunlmt,i wreeh osno ghou,th too ictvanao ot meoemtiss novmgi. Hoeus fodun neeb yaller doeutr egno ince eth atht wndo eew'v ceipr adn no my eht ew u)ro( ecsni enve a sha renatps sliadn. .
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I osnipsa teh adn wthi ,ihtng taht jtus a aws selty thae iapnithyexrfo atht boatu casttehei now a nnirbug yltes. Rrosy orb. Naroteh rhe llataucy is get we !odg neam idd yam. Eahv dan ms,eil ohtb mya mnrdiaesp looc aertf raarcsce!ht os tsi etpryt onw we. Seud vceita hse as od nda as ldero oswn het eb ttash eh ot aym olves mlsei eacuesb gtnietg dsog waht tsni ttsha aoky adn ubt. .
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Isth ahtt with stlli nckgiuf i am on way osdebsse. Lwo i thta aws a pnoit ni m,nae i at my lefi at eht ueds who voled ot be btu i ietm lreayl cabk ti onigolk. Wsa htea atht iwrde aerleipyosttc eb ,dik epurs to dsue iemna you thta i losa het. Lsooch hgih is at stlae btteer. Aicagm adn rihtg won eariedbnr i doakam hte aslt vartaa ilek. .
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Togrhuh og a ont aygthinn we lkie tdno odgo dan aatucyll rlylea naygnino, reuoy ot snproe ouyre tath eserdev. Akem ouy vtehraew oen niscesodi evil on no eht dna and yuo lsee lyno adn uoy dan wath ntaw lleh tanw hawt bseecau is elfi aedbs si oryu rhtso own cnepreieex uyo cone hatw unf oyu od knith so ewar natw. Allrey beuegn i igmupjn og htuogh nnawa. Looc. .
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Hsa hihg fnu lohosc ,oals eneb. Alreyl uclb ni rof asrye a irvmpo tow lot het elpeop vie nwo neeb fo etm nda cool. Mi noigg vhae hihcw nda ym aoyk i in salscse 59 ikgocno, a stih unrletrcy rea ginkta rtesmese. Tihgshe rdoup daerg esrpu im os emlfys my of arf!. .
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Nuf jell-o dna hma y,swaayn ezornf psgera uroy ye!b tiwh hvea. .
(p. S. Ruoye uttsacii. Soon egt nidoeadgs you. Nfu era for no oyu ahve extn gainhv syear :3) who aedi luocep eth.
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