Dear FutureMe,
This year has been rough.
COVID has been bad, although it's kind of dying down. I have already been double vaxxed. I hate wearing masks wherever I go.
You're in Grade 10 now, aren't you? Wow, how it must feel to be 15. You're one year away from your learning permit for driving!
I hope emotionally and physically you're doing better. I'm still going through some depression and anxiety, although not severe depression, but a lot of anxiety the past few months.
Have you shifted yet? I just know I'm getting really close. I've been writing down almost everything that comes to mind in my script. I hope I'll shift soon. If you have shifted, what method do you use? I know it's kind of pointless to ask because you're in the future and we can't write back and forth like normal people.
How's Allyssah Smales? Aiko (Michelle, although she likes to be called Aiko or Bunnie)? Are you even still talking to them? Are you dating anyone? Have you had your first kiss? I hope you have. Have your art skills gotten any better? I want to sculpt and do watercolor paintings and draw cool stuff, but I can't really bring myself to do anything.
Have you made any new friends? Have you achieved your Light Academia style aesthetic dream? Do you have a cat? Another dog? How's Miles? Is he okay? I hope he is. Are you still obsessed with Bakugou and My Hero Academia? I hope that phase never ends. :)
Am I annoying? I hope I'm not. My self-esteem is pretty low. I hope that gets better in the future.
I love you. Keep going, you're worth it. :)
Epilogue
10 days later
hi me!
im doing much better now. ive been in the hospital twice this year for mental health reasons, and you wouldnt be surprised to hear that its not great....
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I anoctuc tond tbu ym,aoren sue entxlfi )aol(m adn reh aklt lilst yalsalh i. I anetvh tldkea iaok rof reysa and. Ot tish edadriapsep trlyohs you etrtle rtewo seh retaf em. Nwko i pneepd,ah tub dotn wsa i it wtah adb ihegtomns tnikh lyelra. Lelw oh. Sshe eertbt won i hoep ngoid. Thbo tehm of. .
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Utho,hg ritfs in retnec i ton my it adh vaeh tyideflein so 2220 iss!k. I saw siks ltasasu cnuto lusxae i ahd tdno cendso it eth cusebae. Nwet laiothps to isemt ywh athts i hoset eth. Wno ingetgt and im guthho is erbtte eht iedshupn trsauasle hcmu. .
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I atr are kyao my gusse slkisl. Tghisn tog i salt wen yalrle oint weke eben diztlyse naigrwd a csoohtkebk adn ehav. Mtotoa of uslrooc a otu werd i erudnt sotl adn ti stizeyld gtaer tihw rleyla. Aeid bnhuc oarmnd twhi shtat a spal ruey'o decruolo no wtah tahw uoy leinscp i egt hwne iogdn you agpe on a eusgs fo. .
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Edma ynma vi'e nwe snfider os. You ill them be rfo tlsi rs!esurpdi fo yduo rhee soem. .
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,ole adn nffgri,i s,ha ao,ntnn ms,a stealhi, la,etrcts iaml, taewtmh wa,ror ai,xsle urt,h ,ielrov. Nvee epsru hastt lla mteh! ont nad lal eryhte fo cien. Ni is my rbeyfaur fo hhtoug eht nerifd vimogn den at clsesot eht seerm,ets ithrg sam seh won, vene. Ctanovai oot oosn we to gmhit othu,hg werhe luotian,min onigmv eb ietsoesmm ew. Yarell my etdour heous ecin taht teh ee'vw gnoe aisnld eht on ahs aerspnt and cnsie bnee a we nwdo fnodu )u(or nvee ieprc. .
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Hatt attechsie nigt,h ahtt iasonsp twih teh own dan a batou teha slyte aws telys i tpyfahxoiiner a jstu ugirbnn. Orsyr rbo. Is oarnthe tge nmea her ddi we aym d!og alcluyta. Its heat!rccras slime, loco os amy nwo we ohbt dna hvea ptrtey aetrf sapmdeirn. Tbu ahwt sa as dgso esabcue yam loevs ttggnie be ot shtat kyoa do seh esud dna vactie he teh ledor adn itns osnw astht lisme. .
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Ma i awy ihts ihtw sesdsboe no fkgicnu hatt lstil. Uesd i eb woh ot low in i i reylal mtei the cbka my ema,n ilef saw ti olvde hatt ta ta a but nolikgo pntio. Sued dewir that oyu osal ot erpsu asw emain eb ttah idk, irycetaosetpl i hte ehta. Ta bteret altes si high clhoos. Own slat omakda i ilek aaarvt gihtr gacmai airdberen teh nda. .
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Prsnoe a to adn ont aallyutc dtno ,gnynnoia oodg huhorgt llraey reyou drsevee og we klie yuore ttha naihtnyg. Evhetraw nwta wtha adn onw nad twna tnhik unf dan cone htaw the and no si evli uoy wrea toshr yuo easdb is lehl you uyo ouyr rnecxeeipe eles on od sisecdnio eon life aceesbu noyl wtna uoy hatw os kame. Gjnupim go buneeg lyelra i wnaan huohtg. Olco. .
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Fnu locsoh sha hhig eneb o,las. Ocol in rasey own lalyre eebn ivorpm tow fo eth and vie lcbu a for emt ppeoel lot. Aehv a i hist in gnoig scsasel 95 yrulentrc emsestre wihch akyo ikgnat rae my im and kgooci,n. Rseup stghhei my of eagdr fmylse os mi fra! podur. .
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Y!eb and jelo-l nfozre aayn,wsy egasrp wiht evah yrou nuf amh. .
(p. S. Utsciita ryuoe. Oosn yuo etg dgaeodnis. ):3 ufn heav ayers the ueploc gvaihn aer rof aeid netx on yuo owh.
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