A letter from Nov 1st, 2021

Peaceful right?

01/11/2021 - is everything better now? dear future dani, im now at work, writing this in english so taht my colleges dont look at the scream and see how sad and depressed im . Im hoping with all my heart that you are in a better place now, mentally. We are in a very dark place right now and sometimes all i can think about is whyi havent ****** myself yet. Honestly, i think im just a coward... As you know, we cant stand pain. Things have staggered ina way that i cant see the beggining and surely the end. Is kitty better? i hope so, if anything happens to it i will not be able of getting better! the inffection is back and we dont have money to treat it. I thougnt that i was lonely last year but i was wrong. Even thou everything is coming back to normal and im again being surrouded by people, im felling more alone than ever. Are you okay? Did you got any better? Sometimes i think this pain will be forever with me, that will be for evermore... Mom is asking us to stop talking to heryc, did you stopped? i dont know what to do, I wish this kind of things didnt happened to me, like, why me??? why can it just be easier? Im so tired. NO. IM EXAUSTED. im so tired of runing and never seeing the finish line. It feels like im swiming against the flow. Please tell me that your life is better now. I hope you found the job you were looking for and hopefully you are happier than ever. I dont have much time left to keep writing, im attending someone right now but i will be back to talk more with you and say what i really want to. bye bye, the old you :) ps: im making playlists later huh:)

Epilogue

about 6 hours later

04/03/2022 - a light in the end of the tunnel.

hey dani, here i'm :). I have to say that I was really anxious about receiving that letter just cause...

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Eatolomin dsa was aelyrl i ti sa swa tpxegen,ic nad. Were wno senieg abd see monsht i kabc deciernffe tneh owh wfe ew itnwih thsi a nca. .
We cyr fotne od mmrerebe rwoes dna juts mseti hoets i etkp rthivegney odluc and saw nhwe adn gegtnit utjs woesr lal. . . Edi perdeyeaslt to dtanwe. All evodl eandwt ot ighnts sueac taht yrsor in ot orf and we ,nees gte dearc nad us adn eefl emit i swa elef nad ttbr,ee os. Ni ddin't sa etrhe teh it in wsih gebnginni ihlgt i isht a we rohguth utb unentl of sadi asps swa nde is to fo and nrcsaesey ): the i hda eht hist,.
I gsuse ewll xcteep ear i anehssppi we awasyl tno si 00%1 we as on nowk ubt efil. Lfie lyaedra vahe i hignmdti of rade to aehv tub neev obyrblap we yuo rayrilb" "het srpteceeipv ienimdag and ti l'unwdot egcahnd ysa, my. Em book elaerzi ihts ouhtiwt cdluo dmae sixte ohw nareidg ssasend passhneip rvnee. Whta ti irulsuyldoci it i onk,w sti' si utb ute!r is. Or eb taocnn era ylelar evenr ltryu xrpdeenceei ealrezi if dw'e eenv ew seanphpis eoebrf pyaph neasdss hawt. Nehw ouy it lelyar das ohntnig uoy nhew teim atht jyo hotes uoy ear ermrmebe ubt ftel.
Oyu asy ilfe hgdenca woh ot ende ensci sah nteh to i our. We ttha hgeeintyrv ogse dna dna teg hgitm 0:302 teh 'mi bjo xceta a we :) nsveoru in is mmnote o,nw are triginw tienweivr sthi ubtao e,lwl ma boj hatt fi.
Akbc nioellsnes its ntd'o hnat hetn nda i onw sa erhe ltfe ucmh i eelf woh elnyol illst ftle i ,that yas i i ebmerrem ubt uselyr cna. Ayd eyvre egt fo iwth to het bde fesyml i sutj otu tllsi esnlgi gthif. Oru mmo tuhr gieeslfn ignhst istsll ahtt asys. Ton stlil efel gehnou i'm i ekil. Etg wr'ee ):' ngiog ertteb tbu to.
Sya just vahe ot ot isth i ouy. Fo 'im yuo podru os. To noseeom how you yuo sya hsit ldwuo mchu i nokw wsedhi. Ghoftu enve ni'dtd newh as uyo hadr. 'tindd ouy ebd eevn hte otu etg fo nweh. Neev or in edcir fyrolesu seple ot eth aohbrmot yuo hnew. Of uropd u!oy mi'. .
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Teetlr aemd tshi haah trea me alyrel. It me ee'wv erealzi tub owh amde ngehdca oals. And yppha ehnt wno aws bonrveem ni emor mi' i. .
'ill girnwit peke. Stih eefl rtbeet oyu elryp eadm i peoh.
We <3 vvusdrei.
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B,ey uerfut uoy :) bey teh.

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