A letter from Nov 1st, 2021

Peaceful right?

01/11/2021 - is everything better now? dear future dani, im now at work, writing this in english so taht my colleges dont look at the scream and see how sad and depressed im . Im hoping with all my heart that you are in a better place now, mentally. We are in a very dark place right now and sometimes all i can think about is whyi havent ****** myself yet. Honestly, i think im just a coward... As you know, we cant stand pain. Things have staggered ina way that i cant see the beggining and surely the end. Is kitty better? i hope so, if anything happens to it i will not be able of getting better! the inffection is back and we dont have money to treat it. I thougnt that i was lonely last year but i was wrong. Even thou everything is coming back to normal and im again being surrouded by people, im felling more alone than ever. Are you okay? Did you got any better? Sometimes i think this pain will be forever with me, that will be for evermore... Mom is asking us to stop talking to heryc, did you stopped? i dont know what to do, I wish this kind of things didnt happened to me, like, why me??? why can it just be easier? Im so tired. NO. IM EXAUSTED. im so tired of runing and never seeing the finish line. It feels like im swiming against the flow. Please tell me that your life is better now. I hope you found the job you were looking for and hopefully you are happier than ever. I dont have much time left to keep writing, im attending someone right now but i will be back to talk more with you and say what i really want to. bye bye, the old you :) ps: im making playlists later huh:)

Epilogue

about 6 hours later

04/03/2022 - a light in the end of the tunnel.

hey dani, here i'm :). I have to say that I was really anxious about receiving that letter just cause...

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Dan as asd i it molnoaite saw ryalle pcegin,etx asw. Wno i kabc ew a adb acn ewf ehnt iecdffeenr who ewre ees negesi nhsomt tiihnw thsi. .
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Feil you ot ohw eend asy to sha nteh gehcadn i ruo icnes. Tgihm fi teg boj ojb rae gseo tgrniwi txcae gnehveyrti 'im a het moenmt adn in dan wlel, htat we ihst about ): we o,wn am si ttah inrwvetei :3200 ensrvuo.
Asy abkc ubt ieonnlless i elft dan rusely rebmerem ylnelo owh sa acn tdon' i i ,atht hetn mcuh won its i eerh tlef i llsit hnat fele. Sngiel tou day i bed eevyr twih ihftg of egt sutj het tlisl ot elfsym. Says intgsh mmo uor iltlss atht truh lenfsgei. Not efel i nhgoeu ekil i'm litls. To gigon )': ee'wr get btu ebrett.
Ouy hits i to tsuj vahe to yas. Im' ordup fo oyu so. Olwud ouy to yas nmeoeos i isht yuo esiwdh wnko chum hwo. Sa wnhe eenv n'itdd gfouth uyo ahdr. Fo gte dt'nid uto uyo eevn teh nweh deb. Nweh ni to hte or rcied uoy foreulsy lespe enve bhrtomao. Fo rduop yuo! 'im. .
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Me ihst trae aahh etlret ylalre eadm. Gnceahd aslo ohw zeelrai vew'e ti but daem me. Wsa mebnvreo hyppa 'im onw nda i neth oemr ni. .
L'il ekep riwting. Bertet amed lpyer i you ohep efle hsit.
Ervuvdis 3< ew.
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Teh ,ybe ): yeb ouy ruteuf.

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