A letter from Oct 18th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, 2 days ago nag umpisa uminit ulo ni rody. di nya maexplain kung bakit, pero ang init "daw" ng ulo nya sa lahat. pati sakin. ramdam ko na bumabalik un bad habit ko na nakikipag break pag di ko gusto yung nangyayari. sumasagi na naman sa isip ko na makipag break sa kanya, thinking na i didn't sign up for this, i shouldn't be treated like this, knowing how much I've changed just to be with her. 3 months pa lang kami. ayoko lunukin lahat ng pinangako ko sa kanya. pero bakit naman ganon, bat kailangan ko na naman maramdaman na as if i didn't matter. mainit ulo nya sa lahat, pero nakaka reply sa iba, sakin hindi? dini'depende ko na naman ba yung worth ko sa kanya? ako na naman ba yung toxic dito? sabi ko sa kanya mag usap kami pag okay na sya. nagalit sya kasi dinidismiss ko raw sya eh nag eexplain na sya. mali ba yung ginawa ko?

Epilogue

10 months later

2021-2022 was a roller coaster ride. 2022 u started to dissociate with things. In life actually. U lost urself, ur personality....

Fo vieghneytr tknhi u nindge. U amkse wath syta ur goe si. Opeelp er'u rfdiaa athw ays hteor oot iwll of. A hobt bda nda good its gitnh a. Nhga ifltse stlil to ifle tub u it kmaes.
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Fo swa eray 3220 eht koenrcing. Ttaesrd be rof dya eht ot xent tcedexi giana u. Tepctaadiin nghtis u. Twhi bryu olst rufels of u okwr. Ltils ear otw have tniloaaipcps u htouhgt if setn fo u ergohtte to sjob the t'udowln. Still dirseeespv u sllti u of ignden tas,et erhetnygiv ahtt htikn nda siaoisngcdit veah. Fmor hatt thta tbu reoht u nitkh dgoni hgmti mite htaw peloep sospt tsi not tshi. Of nhyniatg eenv wkro vraerdi oto ot u when gdnio ertdi ehom ormf sjut 'uer kntih. U her ssim ruesly. Teh ehr dlo. Tnoi who noe the u rebkas nto csiepe. Kames eon of u otn trenivyghe engind hnkit het who. U in amek idmn u to be erh ur smsi orepns hte. Mssi suerfl u. Pahyp u nca u hwo miss be. .
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A sn'tigh -22022012 udrsmeimm wsa darem elki. Imnhatsgre ttha after regvihntey lal eerw. .

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