A letter from Sep 9th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, I’m gonna write some English sentences to try understand, I write in Portuguese what I don’t know I’m making a friend, she’s from Mexico but she lives in USA. It’s kinda hard to keep this friendship because of the time, it’s different from here I’m going to school and I think I’m gonna make a little video showing my classroom, yeah I already show my voice in English, I was so afraid but she understood everything, that makes me so happy, was so cute She’s pretty asf and puerto-riquen, her name is Nina, she’s scorpian and 14, it’s all that I know, but I’m gonna ask what’s her mbti, I think it’s ENFP like me. In my head, some day we’re gonna meet each other in person, but NO! And I’m scared to cling to her and be her best friend in long distance, that’s sad yk? She’s obsessed with Billie too, she’s perfect! I call her baby, in my head that’s normal in US, but I don’t fucking know, and I was scared of she think something… I don’t know, but she’s just act normally. But I don’t know if she think something… To check it I’m gonna ask: “Love what’s your MBTI?” That’s gonna be interesting, I hope the Americans/Mexicans knows that Brazilians are affectionate, that’s cute My cousin Nathalia and my aunt Dinda is telling lies from me and spreading to the whole family, they’re not the capacity to think they’re doing it for a fucking kid, I’m sad and angry about it, I’m not talking with any of them, I hate them more than I ever hate something in my whole life I have three friends and one best friend, I love the way my friend list is growing, I never think that could be possible, and I feel so hugged to think about it, not long ago I didn’t have any friends, I feel so good, so blessed and so important to someone, and… that’s kinda scary somehow lmfao but I’m so, so, so, SO grateful. For the first time in my life I feel really happy, maybe my future me think the same? Or everything changed? Apparently I've managed to write in English so far, a little proud maybe? So here my questions: How the friendship with Nina is going? Fraga keep being your best friend? I think the answer is yes but idk I’m already vaccinate? I’m happy? I keep having friends? The Christmas is comiiinnggg there, you’re gonna stay with your mom or dad? Are you anxious about the new year? What’s your opinion about relationships? Are you keep afraid of falling in love? Are you talking with thaaat person? (Zanette) Are you talking with my cousin Henrique or my cousin Rafa? Are you talking with my worst and lier cousin Nathalia? If you are, Are you being forced? Are you talking with my worst aunt I don’t consider aunt? If you are, are you being forced? Are you daiting giiirllll???😏😏😏 Yes, here I am, telling you everything’s gonna be okay, no matter what, nobody’s with you? I am, so please care yourself and just do what you wanna do, STOP CARING THE FUCK!!!! Listen, EVERYONE IS GONNA DIE, SHES GONNA DIE, HES GONNA DIE, THE MOTHERS GONNA DIE, THE FUCKERS GONNA DIE, AND NOBODY CARES ABOUT YOOOU (In the bad sense) SO DO WHAT THE FUCK YOU WANNA DO AND FUCK THE PEOPLEEEEE, FUCK THE WOOORLDDD FUCK THE UNIVERRSSSEEEE FUCK THE FUCKERS TOO, FUCK EVERYTHING, JUST✨BE✨ That is, bye my little baby