A letter from Aug 31st, 2021

Dear FutureMe, I sent one to us in three years just a few months ago, but a lot has happened. After working really, really hard to get into university, I've had to take a gap year due to financial aid. I'm devastated. I made friends at the school and have yet to tell them I'm not going. I know I'm going to see all of them on Instagram and feel heartbroken. I think things happen for a reason, and I'm doing my best. Right now, I'm job-hunting so that I can save up to go to Japan next July to take the JLPT. I hope that now, in January, that's still something we're going to do. I wanted Allen to go with us, but he says its the busiest day at work so he might not be able to. There's a poem by Blythe bird that I've memorized by now: I'm trying to see things in perspective My dog wants a bite of my peanut butter chocolate bagel But I know she cannot have this because chocolate makes dogs very sick. She does not understand this. She wraps herself around my ankle like a sad scarf begging me to give her just a tiny piece When I don't give in, she goes to sit by the fireplace, sad and drooping. I hope the universe has my best interest in mind like I have my dogs and when I want something with my entire being and the Universe withholds it from me, I hope the Universe shakes her said, saying, "Silly girl, she thinks this is what she wants but she does not know how it will hurt." I hope the universe has our best interest in mind. And I hope we're happy.