A letter from Aug 21st, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I know this is going to go down badly for you if this is a no, but is covid stil a thing? I'm so done with it and it's so frustrating trying to find out more about it just to get a "we don't know yet".Context: delta variant's been here for a month or so and is ******* everything up, and Papa also got covid a week ago or so. Masks are still going to be on for this school year, but I think they're planning to take them off after a month? Sounds like a horrible plan, mainly because of the exagerated number of Karens who think "it's gonna change their DNA and make their already menopausal bodies infertile!!!". I think I'm just done with it all, I've gotten my hopes up so many times just to be disappointed in a matter of hours, or worse, I build up my expectations, and last minute, they cancel. I have way too many examples, it's just depressing. This is seriously going to give me trauma ahhaha. Also adding to the fact that not very social Mia has to be even less (yes it's possible) social, mainly when people are having unsafe parties and whatnot, so I just have to scroll through all those stories while in my bedroom eating chocolate to eat away the sadness. I tell myself that maybe if covid wasn't here, and I'd be able to go to a big party, I'd finally open my people circle, but let's be frank: I have not been invited to a multitude of parties, all of the parties I have been invited to (through friends of course, who would ever think of adding Mia to the group chat, unthinkable!) are filled of people I can't stand and well people in Switzerland are just not fun. Anyways, just reminding you that it's okay if you hate the Swiss, 'cause they suck, and if you had a lame junior year, it's normal 'cause your school sucks ***! ...Another tough question. How did the first partials go? I'm not really that worried 'cause they're all classes we're okay at, but I'm just checking in. Just a reminder: YOU ARE NOT NATHAN. It's okay if your test scores aren't as good as his! Honestly, I'd be really worried if they were... Also, if you did **** up, you can still catch up on the 2nd since they have more value (not sure how you're gonna do that but I believe in you, you can do anything if you put your mind to it!!) I guess that's it. Whenever times get tough, just remember: at least I'm not 15 year-old Mia, **** was she depressed! Nah jk, I mean it's not wrong but... If you're in a bad place, you're the only one with the key to leave the... place? What I'm trying to say is: you control your life, you choose if it's ****** and if it's not, I know it sucks to have this kind of responsibility, but having the ability to choose is liberating. Also! Good luck on uni applications! You got this! It's ok if you don't get into your #1 school, aka UCSB, there are a bunch of other great options. This Mia is absolute **** at essays, but I believe in you! Yes, you've worked hard enough, you've done a bunch of extracurricular and you're passionate, so I truly believe YOU GOT THIS! Don't forget to breathe. Mia

Epilogue

about 17 hours later

Hey PastMe,

Yeah, covid is still a thing... Well, I had almost forgotten about it until I got here at UCSC for the Summer Session, and people had to start...

Ebscaue meho setst ogngi of tiovpsie. Ntas'h htat fo onw, fro hit fo easucbe 'oryeu of acceedlln reyv a eenb tbu rdeda htta rtetb!e wihel aehv sit' lnspa a so kenasgpi em ti few ym in iewhl.
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Ruyo dreinf ash sraydtlcail ecrlic aehndcg. !own o"etsh scien eugss revo ungh ,uoy aeyr 'nehatv wtih i ellw, sgri"l orf i out. Raenptt rstppou erdfinfte i srnoidce inesfdr smesyt elctsso ebst rmeo wn'ats of jsut sha ahtt, 5 asylwa peeplo fo ro sitndea ahtt so adh ym dneach,g urpgo ym ttah dishfepnir htat ro steenyaills p,ca)les morf you teh oeppel aveh lla( elss i. . . I but ls,pna lstli nad i gbi nrsioeag i ofr ltef swekedne no yenusen,ctqol go ellrmsa ocen, lyeral eth ybsu astperi bferoe het ta!tess saw ot i ofr nt'od aym,eron.
Steoh htat n'otd adn ays wrge tath stuj i ,ogpru of is,foe i nevengis i hlowe hiwt gsesu torcvii,e c'tan gpuro i ttah msis uto ubt rudnekn. Fndi i gte me i lievebe ilstl kd,run yaws ym. Gdoenricinser and dan no nda i ewll, hftandgaerr ,tcylaual hsaitb a tellti htat i won ahccooills, tuo ufdno my ym asd'd im' guess ides my utan rdoeiwr were.
Are uygs ear in fun ufn ut,b reiwtazsl!nd terhe ehetr yprtet nvee epoelp. . . And eahv tub hwo 'wde rabke scals nath wve'e uot trniifgl in l,wle uynjaar a rib!deofny olny nebe a nmho,t ,yaeh i bnee sels ilfiflcoya rof inspgr atdngi !utoh!h?gt gnigo auscally aolm vwouel'd encsi nices. Tlsli thuthog i i i eksad i swa wsa in,ggo levo to utaob orthe i eusccssful no rehwe i)efl isth ubt who egttign ifle oen ssgeu my i(n irsfpisndeh odiwerr elov was whti o,srdw eht yuo flex my ym swa xdeciet tletre.
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Teh siwss heta aonreym ynaw,asy tdno' i. Ge,ivnla i've edatacth wrodier nwo msoe of ,yluctlaa bcoeem to htta os indk 'im lppoee fo. Nd'to fo and ot them hiuwtto sloe heest ,ites csarde elif 'im tnaw i. Efli ed)i, l'li and nogig them to i nto eepolp emte t,ub dan sseug (i i elos on oegs mea,n nwe tehr'ye to'nw. Usjt it's. . . Urht anngo lpobyabr 'sit.
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Irstf teh alitapsr twne. . . As eslr,stu ewer tno sa hhotugt odog odgo tjus l,wel i tehy. Dan sa dafile sa ytrhsio i a ont asw tohhgtu wthi ,3 i ciusm oogd whti a 4. Ton vlalero saw i meumbd ma) ,5 sa as n(da atbou my so i nda eignb dectepxe uotba tuo ocers ltlsi hhig hatt. . . Ghhi sa dna ton ats'annh as. . . Revo 'mi tegintg btu it. .
Tgeingt yeilaslecp hte mi' onescd orsla aristpal, llttie het ni a adelif nad i senci ahtw e,grnlae chnfre attsh' fro uxniaos. . . . Tub orf i so taht eeksp to i'm be me fein evig lgelnit tath nda sftfu tshi idtecr gogni 'ndto mflyse ouhnge yerevone. . . Ouetq i ceesuab kwrgi,on that it ti ekpe frmo just dna tusj rntiea amngzia naong em lte loev oy,u m'i aspet.
Fi is to you tbu dan higavn sit' siytth tis' of oescho uryo aenbitrigl u"oy ,lefi sukcs kidn conortl hcesoo teh lytibai vaeh if otn, i isirnlisotpbye, ihst nowk ti ot. ".
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Niu pigrpcahaon tshta' i 'im aols who iocisnlpatpa my sgues. Aynm soshlco udolhs m'i lpapngiy so hogtu ttha i tno eb sanyway to grhtlai. Kitnh uraeyfrb, fo got vecingeri i ro luoshd ni asw eldfraesr i je,esicrtno a tnaanh eb grialth tlteli but ehnw a i olt oidwrer. Inagmi sa ioptectevim adn dflei eb mi' lshn'udto ym ghih otn as.
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Lelw it ssgeu i st'hta. Tewir ,now fo a go 2320 uuertf 'mi elettr em annog to. Her revy fro oewrdri m'i.
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Bd,oyoge.
Aim.

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