A letter from Jul 21st, 2021

Time Travelled — 12 months

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, So I wrote myself one of these for three years from now but I wanted to also do one for 1 year and just lay out what I've been struggling with or pondering lately. I've been struggling with traumas from my family lately which I'm in therapy for. I've also been struggling with all of the hate, negativity, bullying, physical assault, ect toward myself and other vegan animal rights activists for simply speaking up for innocent animals that can't speak for themselves. (Watch Earthling Ed on youtube). I overthink my activism, always worrying if I'm putting negativity out in the world or beating myself up if I didn't stay as composed as I would've liked when people come at me physically or with words. I am doing a lot lot lot better than a year ago with my relationship anxiety, but I still struggle with my appearance sometimes. I notice a lot of other public letters on here focus on wanting to lose weight, be happy, graduate, figure out what they want to do with life, ect. Reading them makes me pause and realize how much we are all the same. Which is nice, after feeling so disconnected from society after what I've been through as a vegan activist. I know that by the time I read this I won't be struggling with everything I said anymore. Because I trust my manifesting abilities, my re-programming, my craft, ect. And I know I will be so much more happy and comfortable in my own skin. And so it is. We get to decide that our lives will be better from this point on. All of us do. I have manifested the love of my life, I'm pretty sure I have clarity about what I want to do. It's really all about liberating myself from the past now. It's late at night I'm here with Shitten and I gotta go do some yoga, I'm currently doing the 365 day yoga challenge which will be over by the time you read this:). You, reading this, will have overcome these issues. And so it is!!! You are so happy, thriving, blissful, and surrounded by love. You and your love are doing better than ever before, with all of those blockages long left behind. And we never look back. We are proud and confident in our own skin, not wanting to be or look like anyone but us. I can smell the candle in a tea cup on my altar. Today I played guitar outside until mosquitos gave me some raging bites. I was doing really excellently with being on my phone less, but some discomforting things lately made me"relapse" plus I decided I was being too hard and constricting on myself so I kinda let my no phone plan go. I figure I will get back to it though. By the time I read this, I no longer have anxious or depressed physical sensations for no detectable reason lol. I'm done with that shit. I'm doing everything to heal. It is done, very soon, certainly for you now as you read this. It feels good doesn't it? Remember when you wrote yourself a letter on New Year's Eve right before 2020, and you felt the feelings of your lover and you KNEW it? And then you got with him that March/April? Well if we can do that, we can CERTAINLY do this whole not being held down by our traumas and past thing. I am so free from the past, coated in love and forgiveness, and all my loved ones including ones I no longer connect with are healthy, protected, thriving, and happy. AND SO IT IS!! Alisia Demi

Epilogue

about 16 hours later

Dear past struggling 2021 self,

The only thing that did not come true was completing the 365 day yoga challenge.

But that was an ego-motivated goal so I am not...

Esput obuta hatt. Ytsinlosetnc eungoh wno it yjone do oagy nda onjye i beuesca it i.
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0212 fo radh hdoaws wsa a eyra owkr. Htcaetad" was lcoempetyl rkoc of dna by at kboo ned ngfiind the omttbo nistpraeiohl iht edavs the uor nda drtmnfesaro 1202 a. Erothy eard ot we " iarzgline owh erwe eoslv sith btoua othb ecno yaes eicnsce oltinccfs tathtmcaen adn oru. Obko osal, hte ruof eegsetrmna het. Cry os vhae and ayphp woh inlotfccs euds lare be ot ofrm a on thigsn yaillsabc era si rfa hwcih ew. Igtcipancr btauo sert'ho yuo orsepn rtcoecr etfecf tih"s oyreu' uro sneed dgienra 'im wkno ot dcireyt,l nlgtlei ont aehc rwbo,n the so t,hsi lobi ot eisnsdsamdngrnuti ignsfele by wtah of teh taht hte eus toher atgsitn owh agsem rebne gknima smpanstisu,o wnod viigdnalta gypianl klils dercti iodng loncsftic fmeyls nto esceriex the si s"ddi/dia stmo setinda nad dna dan fi nad of that oaocintmnim,uc sytro snrmanin,tdedsiugs cna porerylp oru eeplas onkingw.
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Ustj ilensst soed rnalujo yephatr stis ot veen rfofe al,neo and tlka esnrpo orkw a hrewe do, nto popmtr nto hgaynt,in rfo dna uoy hte eo'dnts. Oasl raed trebet own otl het mtuaar nad eocrs obyd oobk i the i llaecd a dnnteuarsd a pekse. Dna afasiot,rmifn ladne,er ym ehav lla ahhelyt sbeeuac rshteo ,eikri idsaent i iwht dna fo detotm,aiin mrsdinidnnaesugts csbeaeu esnopdsrei iwth osen dna iddedlr eatb fo dan oihynps,s dnim, onw toymtrnalip reatlliyl lla, smot of phpay iaghnv ogpimge-arrnmr veha i fo icolfntc tsaloiehprisn. Ipsysobl od hmuc cna saol abet as sa i a onespr eahv os tyinxae. Eth now h,urso ealtcxy a albe ti root and elfe wistesn espass hte am ascue of few anth venre atlss eb mreo uttihwo nda vree ee,rvn kinowgn i i usicosnco to as ti ti, resdspeed. Afr vene adn nda is efw eewetbn atth.
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Elsmfy ym fo tnlrhaige saedtni eewr ,ed or tyingr le,pope an msblpero kile roteh swa eb ecasube gthsri ivicstat hiwt anmial i igebn einbg saht nopetres to. Vmtiscia edam whit a i vieotpsi pnsitalrehio hsgcnea :) esom own dna heav. .
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And to to wnok efil i tuo roieripitz cleytxa nad hwta rothw i my hvae tou twah xltyaec nwta i od hitw fudierg to thaw. Od shnitg i ot atwn do nhsgti eeaslp peeopl egrnlo dna aucyltal i no olny ot do i.
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At the tsap aceep ma i ihwt etpmloyecl. Sillt i ooecsanvrints to taht etorhs ahd ovgaefr lfet i sol,cure ddtiie up klie i nad ti eavh deened emslfy i hytenvgrei ddi'tn ,veah. Irfada am i no olnerg.
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Yosvuleirp of my taht a t,tiomvead neoh,ts mi' fi by aovid ym phone wodul on rwee trgregi my rtaamu no legfien ot it days ophne seigen eabecus eend oenigtmhs. Ttah is on lrgnoe a rconnce. Odgo fof becaues oerm rgsgerit nsteiigntre atnh 'mi now be elfi i a rcesn,e adafir ym nca on wy)a fo hats'w is tno a noehp usbeeca ni( ym real.
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Hatt's eltrste temh cbeaeus hortesr a ubescea lla toko hnitk ,elov o,ll teh so wno evag a fo in isghtn raey a twhi deleiadn dna lal loasg eseht cna shroert muhc st'tha i 'mi nda i inmptesa i viaceeh nogan nesigdn wetri evor os ureftu eimt. Imet satke urtly evign as sluyual a nlog het as tols s'ti ogla.
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Os and my to hielgna 0221 sfle insnegd leov muhc.
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Aisali emdi :).

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