A letter from Jul 21st, 2021

Time Travelled — 12 months

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, So I wrote myself one of these for three years from now but I wanted to also do one for 1 year and just lay out what I've been struggling with or pondering lately. I've been struggling with traumas from my family lately which I'm in therapy for. I've also been struggling with all of the hate, negativity, bullying, physical assault, ect toward myself and other vegan animal rights activists for simply speaking up for innocent animals that can't speak for themselves. (Watch Earthling Ed on youtube). I overthink my activism, always worrying if I'm putting negativity out in the world or beating myself up if I didn't stay as composed as I would've liked when people come at me physically or with words. I am doing a lot lot lot better than a year ago with my relationship anxiety, but I still struggle with my appearance sometimes. I notice a lot of other public letters on here focus on wanting to lose weight, be happy, graduate, figure out what they want to do with life, ect. Reading them makes me pause and realize how much we are all the same. Which is nice, after feeling so disconnected from society after what I've been through as a vegan activist. I know that by the time I read this I won't be struggling with everything I said anymore. Because I trust my manifesting abilities, my re-programming, my craft, ect. And I know I will be so much more happy and comfortable in my own skin. And so it is. We get to decide that our lives will be better from this point on. All of us do. I have manifested the love of my life, I'm pretty sure I have clarity about what I want to do. It's really all about liberating myself from the past now. It's late at night I'm here with Shitten and I gotta go do some yoga, I'm currently doing the 365 day yoga challenge which will be over by the time you read this:). You, reading this, will have overcome these issues. And so it is!!! You are so happy, thriving, blissful, and surrounded by love. You and your love are doing better than ever before, with all of those blockages long left behind. And we never look back. We are proud and confident in our own skin, not wanting to be or look like anyone but us. I can smell the candle in a tea cup on my altar. Today I played guitar outside until mosquitos gave me some raging bites. I was doing really excellently with being on my phone less, but some discomforting things lately made me"relapse" plus I decided I was being too hard and constricting on myself so I kinda let my no phone plan go. I figure I will get back to it though. By the time I read this, I no longer have anxious or depressed physical sensations for no detectable reason lol. I'm done with that shit. I'm doing everything to heal. It is done, very soon, certainly for you now as you read this. It feels good doesn't it? Remember when you wrote yourself a letter on New Year's Eve right before 2020, and you felt the feelings of your lover and you KNEW it? And then you got with him that March/April? Well if we can do that, we can CERTAINLY do this whole not being held down by our traumas and past thing. I am so free from the past, coated in love and forgiveness, and all my loved ones including ones I no longer connect with are healthy, protected, thriving, and happy. AND SO IT IS!! Alisia Demi

Epilogue

about 16 hours later

Dear past struggling 2021 self,

The only thing that did not come true was completing the 365 day yoga challenge.

But that was an ego-motivated goal so I am not...

Btuoa ptues htat. Sbuecea wno i hegnou necytnosslti it do i yenjo goay ti jyeno adn.
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2012 of a darh work raey doahws aws. Nde "dahttcea asw yb dna hti eavds tarofsenmrd lmepylteoc a bkoo iingnfd obtomt fo nad 2102 our rcok apienhrolits ta hte eth. Ot weer our we seincec ader tmheattcna terhyo eyas vselo ocne filccnsto oabut gaezniril hobt and owh " siht. Fuor a,osl the obok the restmgaeen. Sclinctof os si haypp no to who arle nad ormf hhcwi cry asiacblly ew nhigts a be era rfa veha sued. Yrepprol igtnsta cfefet igndo by uyo eht ot dna anc uro klsli os nwok or,wnb ,usniostspma how ot nda ihts, eth wodn sue nidaest psrnoe iycltde,r ddi"/dias ttha egsam isnefgle athw idretc si edesn o'yeru reecsxie erisnstnumddnasgi riegnad teh ntm,miocacnuoi agknim ndtlvgiaia iwgnkon toms ton mi' ernbe ocectrr if fo nda oreth of h'estro torsy uor getnlli eth "htis cciirantgp ilcncofst lfmeys lboi btuoa pgyilan aceh ton snisnnddemsr,atgui apeles ttah adn.
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And pmorpt tes'dno stis ltak tihyang,n dseo aptehyr rfofe ole,an dna het nvee you sjut hewre otn ,od onrajul ofr owkr nrpeso ont a ot nslsite. Seekp a i ebtrte atamur resco ader kobo wno eth dan olas het atdnedsrun a tlo i ealldc dboy. Whti rk,eii im,edotaitn estroh l,al ylpanotirmt of ateb and erdldid prsodiense adn fo vahnig nad lncicoft ueesabc all ym rutdsnidsnaignems of avhe tmso mrm-eiorpragng hitw ehva i psloieatsrhin ilaytrlle ipyo,hssn seno ,mndi iffina,otrams dan yphpa i e,dlrnea own ceesuab of edaints ahthley. Uchm od i ebat oals eixytna os as as hvae can a osnrpe ylissbpo. Assesp erven am adn ti evre efel het orto orem i rpesdeeds wfe a ee,nrv ,it cicsonosu i lbae issenwt thna own to eusca sa yaxcelt dna hitwotu eb hte saslt onwgink ,ursho fo ti. Wfe and veen si afr tath wtnebee nad.
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Ygrnit onetresp saht ihtw gbeni ym eesbuac i rebmslpo of keil eigbn eewr or isicvtta to saw torhe ,de be aalnmi mfyles tighsr eppelo, tsedian an nlietgarh. Nwo i aedm :) neschag aisivmtc dan soem vaeh ivespiot a wthi tprolinaehsi. .
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Twha my flei hvae otu dna nda etalycx toperzriii aclyetx kown atwn orwth wath tou igrudfe awht i ot thiw do ot ot i i. Ylno i od i tsighn laseep od glneor peelpo lytulaac ot to i dan tanw od thgins on.
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The ta twhi mclotpylee am i spat apeec. Sllti eilk nrceaoosvisnt eahv ,vaeh ttha ti dah 'dditn adn tdiide up eftl i i nedede i ot reuoscl, erstoh fgevrao girnhvteey sefyml i. I rlgneo friaad am no.
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Aoidv erew on eeifgnl fo nsheto, ym ot tgehinoms ym eopnh my wlduo by fi ndee usbeace ohepn sgenei im' siyvpulero igetgrr a dveattoim, ysad taht raumat on ti. A no gnleor is crencno atht. Bceesau tnha ton godo be si ym lfie fo draiaf no rome i can w)ya gitsteeinrn rirtsegg a nepoh wno aerl i'm (in ffo caeesbu my a t'hsaw nee,csr.
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Khint ovre 'hastt arye i ,lol os so ginesnd a utuerf dan nca eabcsue ithw a hecviae erhtsro eol,v etltser all umhc sgnthi 'mi okto fo a 'tstah in gnona teh erwti nda uacebse algso dianelde steeh emit i vage smatpien otehsrr lal now meht i. The ist' a satek uslauly time as nievg goal as gonl tlso ryutl.
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Ahlngei so 0212 dninges ovle uchm my ot and fels.
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Dime aailsi :).

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