A letter from Jun 29th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, i haven't written in a while. i'm starting counselling tomorrow and i'm kinda terrified, i really hope it goes well and my counsellor is nice. does it help? did u send that message to meghan about panphobia, did it help? have u come out to luca yet? what about everyone else? martha sent me some earrings, i'm so happy about that. how's college? remember to keep going things for when u feel sad or anxious or stuck: - make snacks the way ur parents would; as in put them on a plate/bowl - watch ur comfort videos - curl up in a ball - let yourself cry - have a nap - have a shower - go rollerskating - text/call ur friends does lucy get better? do i get closer and start opening up more with my friends? appreciate them have you made any new friends have you found out whether you might have adhd and/or anxiety? it's not always shit love your past self

Epilogue

6 months later

dear past me,

i forgot to reply to this lol,
counselling went well, you did it for about 6ish months and then mum stopped booking appointments because she didnt think...

In any oerm ot onegnip leph nyhatnig odluc ddi bene eb pu ttiggne you treeh ti ta ltuni egt eyrlal but myorane mgtih ehtm rwee ebuaces fomr nsatw' hntseo htgir 'ewnrte uyo ouy oluinsclegn hte yllfu ormf teim uoy os esh aehv. Ti i wno of niinthgk im tgasnirt yerathp kboo mi fmleys now 18 odwul os. .
Ensd stuj atth thta on rhe dindegw ihhcw assmege awy go nhgipo nda to utghho rleong on ruyeo and uyo wsa oyu evry dditn ot ddi ikdan eefls eangm unf hse. .
Aptsern yb you rhe oecm avhe wno to ucal gongi aposhi fo uscabee yse to shse' abck gohhut uot.
Rkdun fiylm,a eys to nad emca oenyrvee oryu uhhgot rtpeyt uhcm weer otu uoy tuo ouy royeu cyul ot eetcxp nwhe. Yonl mi leyarl twhi tylenhos dknia cb tirgh ptaeincgc ehss etnsdo tno ubt eth niygrt yllera tath rgeanlyel ot ehs won adtndrneus laed ucnmitymo ertvhwae. Aikdn odgo amtite ihcll to kwon nda so ohtlaguh thsta eemss ssmee.
Ubt aey tsfesurls nda doog nkdia sillt odgo llgceeo pertyt si.
Yclu a lwel eterbt, tog 'sshe shse' tib tog btu to go, a lsilt suvloyboi has adn sey odign otl.
Atstr ont uoy yes seobr btu dna lecsro ueyor em,or niygtr olt at rtsfi uory kunrd wnyaya to ehwn olt to drfiens onw tbi wenh enop era a olny too a pu mreo get rlenuntoayfut and nac udknr a nieogpn vsaerhoer pu oyu.
Wogrngi adn stoneh ,fine eb of ot bti eys eth,m btu mdae yruoe ewn i tlso niedrsf syesm mseo heva gnirelan 'sit a dna tma tsi dna.
Etvnha ryev odufn so vhea esru uoy fo if wto noyan gnihst; disa hetm, shti adn rof eietrh ouy tbu oyu bolpybra evha ryou uyo ,xnietay tuo lavadotini hhig vaeh ad,dh lelnoucsro.
Ture tis isht ylwasa dan esy hts'ta not.
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Urufet yoru vleo sfel.

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