A letter from Jun 16th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, hey! its you!! lara aka lolo so how are u doing?? still toxic family did u get famous?? look..ireally feel down i really wanna **** myself im starting to starve myself.....again i really want to live a good life im really so lonely i just want to be happy i litterly act with myself or the pillow or the wall like its my freinds and were having fun but im so lonely all my ******* freinds are kids im 12 years old now..and im not living my life at all i just want a good life it dosen't have to be perfect just some happiness but all my life is filled with toxic friends and problems all my freinds are fake my bff is fake she dosen't gave af abt me @ all my mom dosen't like me that much my rltn with my family is so ******* bad my dad and i used to be so close but then why my sister started growing up and got skinnier and prettier they just got distracted with her now she is always the first choice i just want to cry my mom tells me im fat and i should stop eating i should eat less like where is my ******* attentoin that im used to from i was so young they loved me alot like ALOT!!! but all that went away now when i should be loved they dont give me attentoin if i cry dance sing do anything im still a child to them and like im crazy and still a kid whitch is i HATE ALOT!! i just dont know my mom dosnt care abt my health she just wants me to be pretty and skinny so she could show me off to her freinds especilly that ******* ***** HER MOM her mom just wants to ruin our family we akway alwayssss try to tell her that she dgaf she just wants to ruin ur family and split us apart and future me u know when my mom and dad divorced whather ******* brother said im just useless to her if im not skinny and pretty like if i told her im starving myself she wouldnt care she will noy get sad she will be happy that i will get skinnier sje just care abt MY LOOKS NOTHING ELSE! idk what to do say anymore i just want to die and **** myself but its haram i just dont ******* know what to ******* to thats it ig byee pls be happy again pls future me.