A letter from Jun 12th, 2021

Dear lucky idiot enjoying summer break, Hey there bud! How are you doing? I'm sending this letter because I'm concerned about how my summer will be, and also because it's the middle of the night and tomorrow will be my first time "dressing like a guy" in public. WITH WAY TOO MANY PEOPLE I KNOW. Why did it have to be graduation first? A bunch of friends and teachers are going to be there. Whatever, I'm sure it'll be fine, I'm actually pretty excited. But anyways, this letter is to check up on yourself, not to remember things that happened literally a month ago. I hope that we're still doing decent, or at least haven't gotten worse. I'm worried right now that I might have too much time with myself again, just like lockdown but because of me and not a global pandemic. So I'm also writing this to remind me to VISIT PEOPLE and DO THINGS. That way I don't end up noticing I'm making myself worse again right before I have to learn and do work again. I know that's probably what would happen. So yeah, take care of yourself please. I really want to remember to focus on making myself better this summer, I can't go through a year like this again. Please don't have gotten worse already by the time you get this. That's really all I'm asking. The me that's talking right now wants you to enjoy summer (at least as much as you usually do), and be happy and alive. I really believe in you right now, so take this as a tiny bit of motivation to improve. Stay calm but be as worried as always, and please at least get this message if none of the others you'll receive later. Man, I've been writing a lot of these. It's a really nice thing I guess. I SWEAR IF YOU DON'T DO WHAT I ASK OF YOU I WILL SLAP YOU. :) P.S. spend time with Ray please, it's been way too long since you've had a good conversation or interaction at all with them.