A letter from Jun 6th, 2021

it is currently 11:13 pm. on this day. about a year ago I would've been excited to finally be a senior and the fact that it was finally summer. these days I have been In a weird way. it has been about two weeks since I graduated and it still feels weird that I am done. I feel like I don't know what I am doing but then I remember that this is only the beginning of life. and I do not know where I will be in the next month let alone the next year. I only hope that I will achieve my dreams and aspirations. In this past two months I have lost my best friend. but I also learned to let go and realize it is what it is. I can't do anything else to fix it. and maybe it just is not meant to be fixed. but I also rekindled a friendship that I thought was completely dead. and honestly I am grateful. but recently I haven't been felling uncertain in life and honestly that doesn't scare me anymore. I have to take life and hold on to it. and as scary as it seems I know there is bigger and better things for me. even if I do it by myself I am all good. so Mary, do what you can but always remember that in this lifetime you are not meant to suffer.