A letter from May 30th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, i texted him yesterday after 2 months of not talking, and it was clear that i didnt get over him and i dont i ever will. i look for his features, personality, flaws, jokes and literally everything in every guy i meet but theyre just not him. idk if im attached or deeply in love or just searching for something thats not there. the way he was talking to e yesterday it was like he was still in love with me, i tried to be cold with him but i just couldnt, once he had i missed you i said it back. ill always have a soft spot for him, even tho in the past 2 months i was literally planning how to murder him but now all i want is a hug from him. i dont think the other guy is for me even tho he treats me like queen yet he deserves someone better. he offered the bracelet back too and i accepted that which means that we have to meet soon i just hope i dont breakdown infront of him. future me, i dont regret him at all