A letter from May 20th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, 👁👄👁 How are you? This year has been hectic. I haven't gotten my covid vaccine yet but things are starting to let up around here. I'm slowly getting through my breakup with Karl. He was an *** but I really loved him and that's what hurts the most. But there's this really cute neighbor kid that lives in the apartment complex. He has black hair and we ride the bus and walk home together, as we have to. I don't even know his name lol! But I see him tomorrow for in person school and I'm so excited. I just got glasses today, I hope he finds them cute. Do things ever go on with him? Are you friends? ❤🌟Boyfriend and girlfriend?🌟❤ God, he's not *** like Dante is he? If he is I'm going to throw my phone. He seems really sincere and nice and I hope things go smoothly. I can't stand another Jayce, honestly. I really hope you're at least friends. Lord knows I need a friend, haha. God, that sounds desperate. Ignore that please. I hope you're not reading this aloud. 8th grade is okay. My grades are terrible. But I'm working to make them better slowly. I'm doing all my homework for once no matter how much I do or don't want to. I'm powering through it. Paigey has been a big help, always there for me. Was a sweet bean. Time is flying by. A week feels like only 2 or 3 days. A month feels like just a week. I'm not sure how to feel about it. On one hand, I suppose it's kind of nice. But on another, it just means all the closer I get to having to go to dad's. And that's not nice. He's moving t ok Tennessee this summer and it has me a bit worried. I hope the place won't be dingy. And I hope I will actually have a real room, not a basement. That would not be nice. But I suppose you already know how that went. So you're neither cringing right now because you know what is to come for me or you're nodding because it was alright. Please be the latter 🤞🤞 lmao I hope you're doing well. That's pretty much all. See you whenever the next year is scheduled for. 2024 or 2025 I think. Well then. See you later. Keep doing what you're doing, you're doing great and I'm proud of you. ❤

Epilogue

5 months later

Hey, girl. I'm doing alright. Depression's back stronger than ever but I'm powering through it. Honestly, I barely even think about Karl anymore. I don't even count him as being...

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Eb me i oeph orpdu ltilet uoy n,ow of oluwd me. Opdru of ,you oto i'm. .

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