A letter from May 13th, 2021

hey it's me :) these day are bad days. I speak about broking up with my bf which I had never thought it a year before. I will be very lost if we broke up. but i am not happy anymore with him. I love him a lot. he is not the first person that i love but he is the first person that become the heal of my life for some time. but time had passed.. and things changed.. are you still together? he is the one of the precious ones in your life. please dont lose him. he will give you the true love. please try to manage things together.please dont let yourselves cry for weeks and broke up. i know i dont speak a lot with him anymore but i dont know.. if i speak with him maybe he will not understand, or he is not in my situtation that is why i am jelaous of him. a lot of "i dont know"s. if you manage to be still together you are strong and love each other. maybe the first chain had broken in april.. i dont know.. even though he had mistakes i love him. but we are not healers of ourselves anymore. how were we last year? i told him everything and we were crying together. i can say again but this time things are different somehow. are you thinking that i am foolish right now? you are the most trustworthy person that i trust, so i tell all my feelings. i think you will not break up. but how will you solve this?