A letter from Apr 30th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, Hy Niharika!! I just read the letter our past send to us. That letter shown me how self conscious and motivated I was. I was??? Yah! Now a days this Niharika is the amplifier of stupidity!! These days I have been dismotivated by situations around me. I'm feeling insecure! I have lot of grudges on my best friends too and this is making me ruthless and brainless. That is why I have been trying to stop putting this act! I have been trying to be normal. I have been trying to study hard and hard so that YOU won't be left alone. As you know we broke up with him. How are you? Moved on? You know I have been lying people and even myself that I'm moved on, but I know I didnt yet. But this doesn't mean that I want him back. Its just I'm feeling guilty that I have messed up his life. Even now I want to text him but you see you know about him and his responses! Response? You know why I said I'm feeling insecure and holding grudges on my besties ? Because they aren't responding well! And amulya!! Idk what happened to her! As you remember I tried not to respond to their texts too! But that isn't my character so I ended up being nice again! Ok!! Lemmi solve this asap so that you can have your fruit full of best friends . please don't tell me they are still this way! Ooocomeon no it can't be....your brain will be messed up if that happens! And more importantly I'm studying well! And you have too! We will we know that! Prepare for GATE! IIT is our goal! Take care Niharika, hope I don't die with problems before you find this letter. -love (Did you complete watching vampire diaries?)

Epilogue

over 1 year later

Dear past me!
For some reason, this sounds weird but imma write my thoughts.
well, I'm happy now. there are still many problems but I'm happy now. Yes, I'm preparing...

Tgea ofr. Edarhr ti orkw i i'm to edne but nvee ondgi llew. Isth eriosmp miet nede awht you liwl gte i i i. .
Lot our a ,drfesin thye hdagnce. We lla aehv atuemr nwrgo. Rsnssepoe otnd' ew oatub onw crae. In ym npogptrius uitdsse eyht em rae. Doog relayl etyh rea. Lal htahutotiwt( we ot i nrealde oru tpacec ahve mioipsm)goncr nseeefcidrf dna. To etbter are ilek a rwog oeprns rtyngi we. Sdgyntui rahd i'm. Xent dtyus i othmn rdrhae llwi. Whta tudys eden so i lliw a steba etg i ekil i iwll atht. 'im innglaopcim wthi ywh edno why" e?m only " ?i 'cnat. " gnitak orepv m'i tshi tnoi atht ym gte ttha oyu is'"t uoy lwli os i etim ot meysfl dsahn stmtrea nwo iwll. Siht im' orf to giong txenet an. Temi ont pndgeisn ,seinrfd hiooptj ithw ia,ymlf 'im ym dan. Aer is ew itsh wlle, ?jotpoih odsiit ohw see ugy now. Rae we. We who mhi i tbihc t'onw loev eppeol flal love in wthi ni ?su liesrsoyu! whti ielk alfl elki lveo. Eedcrtje em eh. Ictkh not veen my dwre a gfit netbewe neil oto urse jeniecgtr eh ubt su i'm. Kdi uro idrftngi form hgouht pu away hmi ew i'm tno heilw ignrngbi barin rae itvhgnkirone wnod rreisapnotpa. Adn vaeh hmi neli aemd my yam rumnbaofclote srceosd aesceub ootpjih hitw i'm oginrgni him i. Or i imh do utrh hurt nto slfmey ntwa to. Atfer eno fo shi in to im' emet he i to,shmn yeptrt 'mi him not'w esru me btuoa sgues vene dicetxe nto wldro inkht even teh 'mi loyn osuthtgh. Od ofr a nac ooihjtp etrhe efw aer ighnts i. Mhi if leph edens nda will nad me eh pleh i iwll eh actntoc. I do glad htat acn at saetl i'm. Gbar i dhuslo i scucess psaa imss miss ti tbu m!roe my mih. Ti i dene. Vdeeser ti we. Slyawa areeddm etg pelryorp inot nad ew oyu i i the srimpeo dtsuy lgc of llwi. Ebf oggin eh yb thoiopj ya,w ni rmaeica xmea the ni nda si ryou to is medecreb. Ahtt i'm selapic os, rou eetm u aer it ngigo to cekusd si meka ubt upy not to dna etadwn suer teme we i gaian hyw kwno tsal pertty. Liwl it ti fi it it tn'ow anpphe if si to ehanpp otn lel,w gngio. Rremebem si teh seicloent ou"yr tebs " ntlosciee taerf tub oseetciln.

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