A letter from Apr 22nd, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I really hope you feel better. Things aren't really good now. I hope you reached your goals. Did you lose weight? Did you choose a good high school? Did you get better at dancing? Can you play the guitar? How is it going in school? Do you have a roommate? Did you get some new friends? What's their names? What high school did you take? How did you decorate your room? I really hope it's green. What kept you going? Is mom calling all the time? How is it going for Andjela? How is Jovana doing in 8th grade? Is Andjela in England? Is it hard, you know, with life? Do you know what you wanna be when you grow up? Do you have your hair short now? Is it a shaggy wolf cut? Do you finnaly wear makeup? Did you get taller? Do you visit Jennifer sometimes? Did your clothes style change? Did you get a boyfriend? Do you miss Filipstad? Is it fun there you are now? Do you have a dance youtube channel? Is your fear of water better? Is Coronavirus over? I really hope it is. It's hard now. Did you forget any good stuff that happened? Do you still have contact with any of your middle school classmates? I hope you're not that lazy anymore! Get yourself together! You can do it! Make mom proud now, please... Study really hard and don't forget to rest... Are you eating normaly? Please do. There are so many things I want you to think about: Don't get too stressed. Work hard and prove mom that you can get a job. Make her the proudest mom. Let her see what amazing daughter she have. Call Jovana and help her with her studies. I know it's hard, but you can do it. Think about what you want to and will become. Write again here and send it to us when we are 19. I love you, please take care of yourself and others. Don't let me down. And, Happy Birthday. From 14 years old Kiki to 16 years old Kiki.

Epilogue

6 months later

Nothing freaking changed Kiki.
You are Sucidal!
You're still fat and ugly.
No you did not cut your hair.
Friends? You actually stopped being friends with Jennifer, but she's asking...

To tkal ot gaain mrooowrt yuo ehr.
Eppoel teher ghna you soem rea etohr tou olhcso tako ends?rif whti in peyrtt. Nto ingmieda who hyte uyo ear. Elnle fo lar,adlye lyutlaac yuo owkn htme oen. Whit csloe ayn fo er'yuo mteh tub not.
Stlil ewhn si oryu ruyo it ilamfy omor ihtw osecm elvi to ppeulr dna oso,lch oyu.
Otn dna uoyll' fila gmy adn uysndgti uor'ey slcas äadskklnmlshpaus pybarobl.
Stwah' nuf ni yob hsolco liek a ouy. Gonan t'nod btuao yuo ,mih dna ska nayngith ru'eoy wnok shi ubt tyr rof snpa.
Asol. . . . 'oyrue ta uorhs igwrtni misesteom weloh siftfoaninc eht tlsae a yad ad,y 4.
You eyrev ouy ouy o?dfo wtan ,ofod ot ehta rhwot etmi eat pu.
Eht ot mnlaet fo ceebsau nad uyo og hthela eurns bda olsoch yuro. .
Ssle omnth neoc caend? a you eikl enadc or ni. Cusks acn btu lyap taugir? siltl idd it anth you hte dna teetrb rtagiu uyo. Iopna niot 'uyoer own roem. A wen yuo redenal hte no gnos iapon. Sebtuelon eylla.
Emro yuo are htna still afylmi heta veer and ruoy eyth nigjugd. That hs'se wno s,aw meht reoampc are htniong rjinenfe owres ot htye erve. Knida erh sims oyu.
Oot cksu ecaebus nkdia olmyts wno sefidnr uyro.
Hte orf tog item rsc?eet yuo kdurn tfirs rvee a. Uoy deirc a otl.
Cinap dhar had and meit aosl kaattc a rieanhtgb si ouy tgo oyru xyneati a,db.
To use yuo grtoof rhad hatt rtoilenah time vhae csabuee you eonft nagbtrhei ysa. Salo uyro yuo od htsru heewtvar ydbo. Ihhg mcbeeo tahw aannw uyo edssrtse rea uot etraf alyler ouy csloho.
Pokp ho utbret llejy tepuna ouy ym crniifhg nda no a sd,niahcw cnecrot ntew. O,ers ethm ekchc eth otu. An afrte a annaw it'ddn to pphay cmoe laimyf dogo mean ouy evale asw os full notercc lcaep htat asecbeu nad orf sbevaiu ti oyu the idrec the ohru aming,za.
Cemtonm isveg nru fomr live it em thwor tsurt eyevr llsti 'its can, nda rnfjieen uoy if twih you ywaa ier,jefnn eomh llteit.
Geuryno ihtkn ot sloeuy,rf own ekli so rtseis lsetl ryeve ikll ahtt we ussge yrou yad you.
Ngthi vleo g,aret dakni uoy miim si liingv loyn hte. V'enhat ihm best felt sneci yuo olhsoc yuo, hhig aetstrd royu shogt also byo idfern eesn ouy. Retosh tfel are in trhoe omeh eth all and.
'uyoer wno on yrou.
Tffcusaoinn fi n'otd fo ibetlfauu hte sardydaem uyo uoyr adn lal lpepoe in ocunt.
Lilts haev you rmblpoe idgarnamyed whit a yh,ae. Reve oswre tahn st'i.
Yuo ey!b !dei eohp.

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