A letter from Apr 9th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, I'm crushing on a girl who's 'crushing' on other person and she told me. I played happy, and I am happy for her but it hurts... Yes we both know we're not straight, she isn't either!! WE'RE BI AND PROUD!!! Btw, have you told mom yet?? Or anyone on the family without being our closest cousins?? Because of this fawking 'crush' I've been feeling really down lately, I just hope no one notices! I also think that the person she 'likes' has a 'crush' on her... And I'm crying... I just hope she's happy, I didn't had a crush on anyone for a long time, and it sucks now, before it was just girly crushes. When she told I just smiled and said 'wow...Haha...yeah' but it really hurted and that's how I officially knew that I had a crush on her... because of that and of the butterflies when we make eye contact, I thought I was just confused... well I wasn't! I've been feeling ugly like I'm not enough and I JUST WANT TO SCREAM!!!!! In about a months you're going to receive this, update it please!! We need to know that we're okay and like it's just high school, in this moment the best option is to forget this person! I don't want to stop being friends with her but the crush thing has to go away! Pls! There's also this boy, I don't have a crush on him but our past still messes with me... we were best friends after all... we keep making eye contact... and idk! Hope you're doing well!! Love, we. P.s- when I feel bad I will send a letter so get ready to read. Oh and I'm sorry if there's any errors(?).