A letter from April 6th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I'm writing this as of the sixth of April of 2021, with the delivery date being in 3 years, when I'll, hopefully, be in university. Right now, the future is something that highly worries me and makes me anxious. I have been looking for universities to attend yet none captivates me like Coimbra. It's highly renowed and it has the major which i want, history. Am I still pursuing my dreams of becoming a history teacher? Did I end up getting into History or even Coimbra? I'm really worried about starting the internship and also taking the PAP and the exams :/ You probably don't recall it, but at this point I've lost hours upon hours of sleep thinking about my future and worrying about failure. If we did get into university, how have you been handling it, finantially wise? I know that money, wether it's tuition or the cost of living in another city is always a big worry and stuff can get difficult. Knowing myself I'm probably freaking out, if it's the case. On another note, have you been keeping contact with your friends? Catarina, Raquel, Ribeiro? How have they been, message them, tell them you miss them. Right now we have the strongest bond ever. Even with this whole pandemic going on, we still find a way to spend time together and everyone has been really supportive. Hopefully we made some new friends in university! Let's talk boys... or girls! How have you been on the process of discovering yourself? Right now I don't label myself, and am super happy with it. I don't like the fact that society implements labels and wants us to fit in them. I'm way better not labeling my *********! Back to lovelife. Got anyone special? I'm going to give you a quick recap of what's going on right now. There's two boys that simultaneously like me, and yet I like none of them. Oh well, it is what it is! I hope you found your significant other or at least have had someone by now! One last thing before I end this quick letter, what are your interests right now? Do you still like One Direction? I am currently enjoying the minecraft server DreamSMP, do you still watch it or any of the youtubers/streamers involved? If not, please check up on them. Here's a list of people I would love you to check: Tommyinnit, Ranboo, WilburSoot, Nihachu, Technoblade and Tubbo. Are you still on stan twitter? Do you even remeber any of this? Of the nights you stayed up watching streams, lore or not, MCC's, Jackbox streams? Do you remeber Sad-Ist? Alliumtwt? I really hope we don't let go of this because right now it's one of the things that bring me joy! And did you get that ADHD test? I'm planning on taking it, since I have my own suspicions. I'm going to wrap this letter up by asking you to please write another letter for your future self. The website is futureme.org, in case you forget! I hope I was able to achieve my main goals :] Sincerely, 16 year old Juliana. P.S.: I'm going to set the delivery date of this letter as Tommy's birthday, go wish him a happy day!

Epilogue

3 days later

Dear 16-Year-Old-Me,

Wow, it's really weird writing that, I completely forgot about this specific letter's existence (although I still use this website), and it was absolutely shocking receiving this email...

Tnaiinifcoto a !gthin eaydstu no.
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Mdeese an(d per,osn in stehr'e even i a a hsete eikl layerl wdo,rs awy eudnbk and hatt oyu 050 ectyrrlun si nhat ma tlo lo)t miobtsaiu os a roem ot.
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Ym i m'i ktinh i nad iidrfcete g,oa !it tnucold' nebe to w'ree ofr rae 'eewr pnssiao eyra a reya shifiginn elcyxat to dan ot fo cseni nhta !in diter i olfiwnlog my and bah'eorlcs, sitrf htisroy ayesr omm gte hghi dan dan si mhton frdfao tub lpleyfhou it afuttrynouenl ,ihrc invgryeteh t!i a di,d tigehn!ac nthe aflyicr but chlo,os hespa (neo in afhl ym atwh nad niysetviu!r dahgnie igphlne ot !w)aya 3 ubt yreculntr apy in twih gpa a uocatedin srift ont lilst rifst yb!ab ,wthi t'is rntiagts emrstsa' dwtrsoa hghutro atth lla ew hutosthg ololfw tgo ettebr rfo if enwatd a we ct:poi dan ktoo yrea arfte ruo reya royu dad adn.
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Yuo stbe hvea and geoncizdre iyrtlonaelnatni rithnoiass in eb uroy het ngisee 9 ulcsylaa sh'eret muhc a hre,e eltl uoy ao!rcmbi ntwa rlreaus atecsher atbuo os decetirif i to it's. M. Og htfig )lsasc ervye os ,dya ni n'tod elmsyf rioelinsg edb csasl i to yats i( nad. Shti refuagtl n!bicemaa is as teh stuendt bneig hte tciy uoy be nda thhut!go roem vaorlle a fo i sa doupr tu'cnodl nda ehre ehyneigtvr eep,hsatomr ni ,polepe eth aicamlg. Ohubg!t eht ets etdtif eth ufll owaeb,drr dna jreat dha het in arleayd ea,cp ym tiignst rou eth atco, is adn ew hoess. . Tsfa tehm i to asuerl,r dan by on os so teim g!idyd) gte enev ist' ,me htat try unfgl emiem(stso os.
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Ewn ifsrned of klei ehav a ouy rhiidspsfen reev i aymn oigmvn dmae eerh! kinmga os rtefolbmcao otu elef omer ebeomc lyturftbe iosacl nad cisen i. Era su, reiht asw to a !licrce iderfn ,aan hucs nad tesb so meolwdce epolpe itd,eaml indk ysieelpalc in lpeac lysilcaepe nairaam eoms si us teh lal sujt hdeanepp ruo irnen ,in os llbyoutsae odvue'lc gznim,aa hgtri eeoryvne tehy ear of dan neam we ear so bimcrao yhte oodg muhc hits aols orugp teh iont itsf uyor gntih ot nda bets thta uj no rhea,t !em nad lwel sraoetomm. ):.
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Gmainza utb aghcedn oagnl urpgo ltsil fednri of eddda even llits ho"em" eth is we gohthu si orwng aer t'vyehe p,peelo and uepclo teh !trhee sa ,ayw uro eth ev,er as rribieo dan auerql a odvreem !amse dna reoc. Tyr ew hace hc,um uhecsesld ha,tt) uyo o'ndt era ot oww( see htwa ekil the bcak gnlia touba oemh ipdmecan tub ees aehc oerht i os oethr oogftr dna rou iienrgpenxec its' ew wneh 'weer sa stlli ihtw.
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Love lfie oru. . . Or alck of. . . V'enaht i si pcnctecaea h,ssirploeitna ib to evyr a nda rea mchu oayk who vwei mtonia,rc aiolnctp hwti ew of tbho nyeaon yte tt!ha atht and tocip! cmeolaipcdt ew aws yke edtad. ,oitpc to itkhn uyo ti eth erhet ofr tshi !ekoopi roswier o'dtn os see who pculoe oelepp part ruifutlf no us of asylwa w,on tipmciiots in rae os rorys okwn 'ellw see ti of nsdfrei a iipnptadso wokr vlei it us tbu d,ne hatt era sthi rwee rwhee sedeem out i ubt lefi e!sod imet me smmeoetsi form lal i eaionstsrhipl ym ni 'mi s!u ): mh,te pedlove ieednrstte sgyuiovo,rl will ouy olcdu sdael ot leki.
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Iadme yuor eisrntset. . . . Hilew i ifeelyntdi trigh ietm an h'ryete i and )utdy,s rgeen, vmoit/ev satmsre clak tchwa u,hmc onw !dngahec ielk lrig, n'tdo fo of loaldaunr- chatw uhthgo ot tol tib ileltt ene(v ienso hte hvea ude a tbu esud fo rveye fo i fro geensr thta to kdni ymsotl neslti iucms elef bdgunorcka a w,no. S,kid our cmea a sasoen i ti otp ,kopp- hsow tasisrt tuo la-letim ysa tsrya vdrsceoi okhtrm!paocbn eben wchih si tnseveeen ot onwk ctiks cokr llist nda iotn no lto tsgielnin dna tatemr but rht(id oru 'mi yknoems nehw lwli i'ev a mayn nda ot rhgit iymlan owh rervfoe o,wn i in ouy a vtiroaef eevnr of i os ldeki ritnorg,dbe rtia,fseov aveh ti llarey kile to dneii! lliett sltli )tmhn!o tcirca.
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Iedanrg it awth ttah fsher ikel nbemermgrie mte,i i adn awht erffual adn a agtiawni uhcs tish fo i etlf asw asw ira of ktnhgini ta brathe. Cbrineylid wno a,hdpepen reewh lo,epep res,ya eesht have ma i be tlo orelf,syu a tlo see otuba iddnt' lto em urthgho n,ad hgtir geiv a ehret at a thta of aphpy i nda dlouw i hotruhg wokn ywa,a pu aezdiler n!ojeury shit hsa elcyaspl,ei 16yo to atht eovdm dna hwyafla you mte.
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Enurrtcly dluco a 1 uoy 'tsi omer atth srehe't ot btu tobua a i lto wietr. M. So)eedlbv a aingazm selpe is of ew utoab )(fwt kiko sit' i i 41 vree si dawnte btu mmo ownk to uyo nad r'ehes awnt si ym enmo:tin nhgti, a htta sa otld oyu prtya nad invrgthi nida#,n24( nl,omar dan tihw hte os rphitesloani is yrou fo nto a cuhs a rof i etrlryucn lsilt dna a uoy tebs dad i syh !leylov etrssi uory ,artsepn aecrp soal scelo hhwci oettuln(uranfy ibt hrgiyenetv seonpr otl, evha c!khso afnlliy as rewe os ,ra)noess to elef na alfmyi.
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Kewa omrorwto i eospr!mi li'l rwite us to nngmior -r2e-2odaly p,u ehwn.
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Ardeing as you ,heest eekp 'ill sa htme rtwnigi onlg kpee.
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Rc,ilyesen.
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Auinlaj yo9d1r-ae-l.

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