A letter from April 6th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I'm writing this as of the sixth of April of 2021, with the delivery date being in 3 years, when I'll, hopefully, be in university. Right now, the future is something that highly worries me and makes me anxious. I have been looking for universities to attend yet none captivates me like Coimbra. It's highly renowed and it has the major which i want, history. Am I still pursuing my dreams of becoming a history teacher? Did I end up getting into History or even Coimbra? I'm really worried about starting the internship and also taking the PAP and the exams :/ You probably don't recall it, but at this point I've lost hours upon hours of sleep thinking about my future and worrying about failure. If we did get into university, how have you been handling it, finantially wise? I know that money, wether it's tuition or the cost of living in another city is always a big worry and stuff can get difficult. Knowing myself I'm probably freaking out, if it's the case. On another note, have you been keeping contact with your friends? Catarina, Raquel, Ribeiro? How have they been, message them, tell them you miss them. Right now we have the strongest bond ever. Even with this whole pandemic going on, we still find a way to spend time together and everyone has been really supportive. Hopefully we made some new friends in university! Let's talk boys... or girls! How have you been on the process of discovering yourself? Right now I don't label myself, and am super happy with it. I don't like the fact that society implements labels and wants us to fit in them. I'm way better not labeling my *********! Back to lovelife. Got anyone special? I'm going to give you a quick recap of what's going on right now. There's two boys that simultaneously like me, and yet I like none of them. Oh well, it is what it is! I hope you found your significant other or at least have had someone by now! One last thing before I end this quick letter, what are your interests right now? Do you still like One Direction? I am currently enjoying the minecraft server DreamSMP, do you still watch it or any of the youtubers/streamers involved? If not, please check up on them. Here's a list of people I would love you to check: Tommyinnit, Ranboo, WilburSoot, Nihachu, Technoblade and Tubbo. Are you still on stan twitter? Do you even remeber any of this? Of the nights you stayed up watching streams, lore or not, MCC's, Jackbox streams? Do you remeber Sad-Ist? Alliumtwt? I really hope we don't let go of this because right now it's one of the things that bring me joy! And did you get that ADHD test? I'm planning on taking it, since I have my own suspicions. I'm going to wrap this letter up by asking you to please write another letter for your future self. The website is futureme.org, in case you forget! I hope I was able to achieve my main goals :] Sincerely, 16 year old Juliana. P.S.: I'm going to set the delivery date of this letter as Tommy's birthday, go wish him a happy day!

Epilogue

3 days later

Dear 16-Year-Old-Me,

Wow, it's really weird writing that, I completely forgot about this specific letter's existence (although I still use this website), and it was absolutely shocking receiving this email...

Uydetsa ctnnfooitiai hint!g no a.
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Neev a 500 iubotmias lyeral tol rmeo awy dnebku drwos, thees ekli a so a dna mseeed ol)t i thta an(d uyecrltrn ot sree'th ni hant ma you si nre,spo.
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Gpa uor ym wdaten enth idter airlycf tifrs ot erya and hpgnlie ahtt of utb ithkn dhaegni yap insfnighi flha mom anpisos i'm arey ictnegah! vtrhnegyei in nhat era i,rhc eyars tirsf and my a agnsittr !baby tge adn tsoadwr dad your btu awa!)y lolofw irtsneivuy! eyra !ni lcshoo, 'reew hleulfpyo to erebtt ctdeiunoa ton ebne toko it! to dan all iecsn to hbsc,o'ealr aphes sghthtou dan nad ,htwi atwh 'ist i l'uctnod refat 3 high in tub ciot:p nlecytrur rwe'e i fi otuhhrg a is lwfigloon ym aery we trioysh ew i ofr oag, ddi, nad a ntmho xcleyta sillt got twih dafrfo for res'atsm (one dan lntnfutuaoery a ti itsfr idfrceite it!.
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Thser'e i ylalaiierntotnn eb 9 gneies aehv tuaob adn cmuh uoy ni erlausr 'ist oyru cmabi!ro iocgdrezne ot ceiierdtf os erhecast tebs ntaw eht tell a tarhssoiin sauylalc r,hee you. M. (i os tsya hfitg salsc bde )sclsa og i ot 'tndo sglionire nda yerve lsmfey ,day ni. Agaicml het emsrath,eop si ,eloepp hte tehirnvgey yuo podru ni ulteagrf and dan lloarve toc'ludn tudtnse ambi!cnae eht orem i as enibg of icyt be sa reeh hist a ht!guoht. Hte in o,adrwber ehsso dna flul tes our het ew and eht ce,pa iteftd ,cato tarje tob!hgu hda aldayre my itgtnis hte si. . Dna os miseset(om by emit so me, y!i)dgd mthe no to that tyr tis' fgnlu eenv tge atfs i os erusra,l.
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Eecobm a i evah fo uyo reeh! npsisihrdfe vree ltocebromfa and nyma gnvoim cenis sedrinf uto mdea rftulybte mgkani acolis mroe eelf os enw lkei i. Uj and githn uogpr atht gdoo well a nda tghir yuro rheti ntio eth eynreveo tsif uor clmeedow fo os su ucmh ni, acelp saw em! brcoiam yeht hte 'euodvlc and so rahet, ni ethy stuj we oems si to lcipeelays rae on lc!rice tmrameoso uyaellobst hist rniamaa gmin,zaa ikdn ear os ot edifnr deapehpn edmtial, tebs lal inern hcus eyeclpisal leopep ana, tsbe salo rea s,u nad enam. :).
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Eqlrau eht is owngr enve eth mvreoed sa ughoht tvye'eh eddad ltlis ednacgh nda aolng croe is of ierbroi "eho"m aagnzmi as utb difenr ppolee, cluepo adn sllti uprog dna ear as!em tr!eeh ,erev the ew ,ywa a uor. See ckab obtua itsll ethor with btu u,cmh uor gnrenixicepe to ese laign wtha miecdapn caeh tah),t rehot rea wow( e'rew ecah its' whne hmoe we i dan eth huedeslsc fgrtoo sa yuo yrt leik os dton' ew.
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Ifle olev oru. . . Or ckal of. . . Of cteacnacep we yet muhc tath who hotb 'eavtnh ib aitonrcm, okay to i eosahrsnpili,t yke eynona etdad nad era asw ievw yerv icpacldemto adn a opc!ti cialopnt tiwh htta! si we. In ot ti lppeeo heret wrhee smtsoieem ufirftul wo,n me fiel u!s 'dtno 'mi mesede i so orfm of rtap so vepldoe wl'le who tednesrite ivel ear rysro htm,e oucdl in tbu iserwor su dferisn ot e!oikpo ym pctmiotiis ownk tub a lal alwyas ielk hoeirtslsanpi of aedls rae leucpo ahtt no ,den hits i it uoy ): tou oyu s!ode imte eewr iktnh hist ese uloivr,ygos su ese the ipt,oc it liwl owrk for dpipaontis.
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Eiertnsts uryo amied. . . . Imet nda na tib fo krabgucdon igr,l hgtir knid mt/vvieo flee ot tol vhae hryet'e otghhu ilek eltsin a rof i elttil ,chum umisc gn,ree but veeyr !hgeancd of (evne nod't ysotml htat fo assterm o,wn ot cwaht diienflety egnsre a alkc eud niseo i onw lwhie eht lurnlada-o cthaw i )tdus,y edsu fo. Ot i vfeitroa to tpo our in nda vrefoer nnetseeve elik knseomy dan rkco on i enbe of yearll a ltisl eosnas nmay to i cciart ysa lmiyan a titlle uyo lietal-m dna ,pk-op dbtor,iegnr so enwh btu iton own, a nidei! it uto scoevird wsho lliw sictk ecma caooknrthpm!b v'ei tih(dr tol ihhwc etmtra yrsat atstris si uor lnintsgei srtf,oeiva veenr woh ehva it iltsl ilekd mi' nowk mh)o!nt sikd, tigrh.
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I it kiel htat ta of twah a sefhr of air fluefar ,etmi dna aitwgain uhsc eabtrh eireenrbgmm eflt i was was thaw tignknhi drigane dna shit. A ahve and e,plliscaey tsih i lot whfaayl be i e,olepp pu easy,r batou these hgtrhuo to at erhet olt dan ojrn!uey riibedylcn hatt olt evig a uoy epnae,dph tath d'indt me a,way hsa of zldraeie pypha n,ad emt nkow i ruoly,efs onw ma see rhtig vmoed y16o dlwou hwree a hrghtuo.
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Ot utb a tol itewr i thta sti' uoy eh'tsre 1 rtucrelny lcduo uatob a remo. M. Lfee uoy niomtn:e aveh si tawend an a eerv tllsi harptsieilon tbu w)(tf dda etgryvheni eehs'r we t,inhg as ouy trrlycenu you to 14 atypr hwit zangami ceosl i ttah nad tno si rof fo dan si uoyr fo rgihintv tbi so mom 'sit os rceap a ym kiok tldo onwk eth rpones adn untyaeul(rnoft hscu batou issert si sptr,aen i i en,s)aros fnyilal lspee ysh sola d,4a2(nn#i hcos!k ollyev! nad ciwhh antw stbe a a lmfyai vbs)eolde ,mlnaro a ryou ot,l sa i rewe ot.
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Wtrie li'l r!emospi akew to i owrtromo e2-lryao-d2 nnrgmio nhew ,up us.
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Nlgo mthe ill' as sa ee,hts peek kpee yuo iargden tnirwig.
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Rsnilcyee,.
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Juailna ly-oa1re-d9.

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